WTF is going on in my life you ask?
Much has happened in the past month. After I came back from my one week visit back to Chicago at the beginning of September I became sick as fuck. I had to go to class and work while I felt like crap for a whole week. I was already feeling overwhelmed by everything. I kept calling home to see how my grandmother was doing.
She passed away a few weeks ago. It was incredibly surreal when I heard. It felt like it wasn't really happening. How could it? I was so far away from it all. My mom really wanted me to come back home for the wake so I went back home only after being away for a couple of weeks. It's been a week since I've gotten back, but it seems longer than that. It was incredibly sad being home. My grandmother died at the age of 77 and was burried in Tamayo, Mexico. I could not make it to Mexico since I have classes and work. My grandmother sacrificed so much for all of her family, especially me.
When my mother was single and had to work, she took care of me everyday. She also took care of my cousins and I when we were a bit older. I get my artistic abilities from her. She passed them down to my mother, and her to me. She used to be a elementary school teacher. That's why she was so good with children. She also used to taylor clothes and such. The last time I saw her was when I visited in early september. I got to thank her for all she did for me before she died. I'm happy because of that.
Anyways, on to not so sad things...
I got to hang out with Malloreigh while she was in San Fran waiting to fly to New Zealand. We actually got to hang out the day of her flight. She was carrying the biggest back pack I've ever seen. I swear it was just as big as her. We got coffee at my favorite coffee place. It's funny because I don't think I've been there since. It sucks being broke. After that we got sushi which was cool since I used the school's credit that they gave me. It's useful in only a few restaurants near campus. Free food is great. I have no idea what we talked about. Probably about nothing and yet everything at the same time. It's what happens when you put to awesome nerds together. I'm glad I got to meet her since I chickened out on Burning Man. She's a pretty rad person.
It was sunny as hell that day. And I was afraid the guy who took the picture was going to run away with my camera. heh
I've been feeling distant from life. What do I mean? Well, Iately I've been extremely busy with trying to make up school work and working a part time job. I barely have any down time. I feel like a zombie. Just doing things automatically and not thinking. I'm a machine.
I have been riding my old schwinn though. Which is awesome. I love riding through the city, especially down hill. My bike is old and falling apart. It's also to big for me. I really want to save up a Fuji Track. No fixed gear, though. I don't have the balls big enough for that shit. The other day I almost ran over a bum, but luckly I had breaks to rely on. I would have busted my arse if I had a fixed gear since I almost fell off. He had jumped in front ahead of me and yelled for me to stop. It happened all of a sudden. I yelled at him to get out of the fucking way. He responed by saying, "FUCK YOU! I'LL STICK YOU IN THE FACE YOU! PUNK ASS!" Then I told him to come get me and rode off. heh
I don't hang out with anyone, but I really don't want to. Is that really wrong? No one seems worthy of my attention. It might just be me being picky. I do miss being back in Chicago where all the people close to me are.
For a crazy few days I actually thought about dropping out of school and moving back home. I decided not to after taking in consideration all the advice from a bunch of people. Some where stupid about it while others were very helpful. There's a girl who's in her third year at school. I forget her name, which is embarrassing, but she's helped me out quite a bit. I decided to stat in school after talking to her. that was a close one.
I have class in six hours, so I'm fucked. goodnight everyone.
Remeber to eat your vegetables and ride a fucking bike!
Much has happened in the past month. After I came back from my one week visit back to Chicago at the beginning of September I became sick as fuck. I had to go to class and work while I felt like crap for a whole week. I was already feeling overwhelmed by everything. I kept calling home to see how my grandmother was doing.
She passed away a few weeks ago. It was incredibly surreal when I heard. It felt like it wasn't really happening. How could it? I was so far away from it all. My mom really wanted me to come back home for the wake so I went back home only after being away for a couple of weeks. It's been a week since I've gotten back, but it seems longer than that. It was incredibly sad being home. My grandmother died at the age of 77 and was burried in Tamayo, Mexico. I could not make it to Mexico since I have classes and work. My grandmother sacrificed so much for all of her family, especially me.
When my mother was single and had to work, she took care of me everyday. She also took care of my cousins and I when we were a bit older. I get my artistic abilities from her. She passed them down to my mother, and her to me. She used to be a elementary school teacher. That's why she was so good with children. She also used to taylor clothes and such. The last time I saw her was when I visited in early september. I got to thank her for all she did for me before she died. I'm happy because of that.
Anyways, on to not so sad things...
I got to hang out with Malloreigh while she was in San Fran waiting to fly to New Zealand. We actually got to hang out the day of her flight. She was carrying the biggest back pack I've ever seen. I swear it was just as big as her. We got coffee at my favorite coffee place. It's funny because I don't think I've been there since. It sucks being broke. After that we got sushi which was cool since I used the school's credit that they gave me. It's useful in only a few restaurants near campus. Free food is great. I have no idea what we talked about. Probably about nothing and yet everything at the same time. It's what happens when you put to awesome nerds together. I'm glad I got to meet her since I chickened out on Burning Man. She's a pretty rad person.
It was sunny as hell that day. And I was afraid the guy who took the picture was going to run away with my camera. heh
I've been feeling distant from life. What do I mean? Well, Iately I've been extremely busy with trying to make up school work and working a part time job. I barely have any down time. I feel like a zombie. Just doing things automatically and not thinking. I'm a machine.
I have been riding my old schwinn though. Which is awesome. I love riding through the city, especially down hill. My bike is old and falling apart. It's also to big for me. I really want to save up a Fuji Track. No fixed gear, though. I don't have the balls big enough for that shit. The other day I almost ran over a bum, but luckly I had breaks to rely on. I would have busted my arse if I had a fixed gear since I almost fell off. He had jumped in front ahead of me and yelled for me to stop. It happened all of a sudden. I yelled at him to get out of the fucking way. He responed by saying, "FUCK YOU! I'LL STICK YOU IN THE FACE YOU! PUNK ASS!" Then I told him to come get me and rode off. heh
I don't hang out with anyone, but I really don't want to. Is that really wrong? No one seems worthy of my attention. It might just be me being picky. I do miss being back in Chicago where all the people close to me are.
For a crazy few days I actually thought about dropping out of school and moving back home. I decided not to after taking in consideration all the advice from a bunch of people. Some where stupid about it while others were very helpful. There's a girl who's in her third year at school. I forget her name, which is embarrassing, but she's helped me out quite a bit. I decided to stat in school after talking to her. that was a close one.
I have class in six hours, so I'm fucked. goodnight everyone.
Remeber to eat your vegetables and ride a fucking bike!
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malloreigh:
glad you like it!taking pictures of oneself is a real tough thing to do sometimes. even for meeee and i take more photos of myself than anyone else i know.