spiderkittin

fuck me and my big fat mouth.

and i dont mean that literally....


i said something i shouldnt have to justin and now he's all upset. and its got me even more upset.

because its making him question my loyalty. and i know it.

and even when i say i wont cheat on him. he says thats what his past three girlfriends said. and they all cheated on him.

i dont cheat.

i did ONCE. and i still feel like shit for it and hate myself for it. its not my cup of tea. and i'm never gonna let it happen again. and i fuckin mean it unlike everyone else in the world who cant keep their pants on.

justin is the best thing to happen to me. he treats me better than ANY GUY i've ever been with. like. he's fucking romantic. none of the guys i've ever dated have been romantic in a sense.

and already. a week into the relationship. i've caused a bump.

i need to learn to shut up some times.

and dudes with tight pants and hard ons need to not come into torrid anymore... so that i dont end up telling my boyfriend about them and their grossness.

>.<