spica

Thanks everyone for the kind comments on my last journal. God knows how I needed you kind words after Gateau's death. I'm feeling a lot better now, time goes by and the heart gets slowly fixed.

2009 is still a few months away but I can't stand this year anymore. I know that needing a new calendar won't fix things, but at least I know I'll feel renewed.
It's been a bad year. If having my lovely cat dying in my arms wasn't enough, just a few days later my Dad found out he's going to need a heart surgery. We can afford it, thank god, but it's still really scary. And it kills me seeing my Dad so scared for his life.

Also, I'm fed up with my brother. I know he doesn't like me (I really don't like him either), but I can't stand the way he treats my parents. He's 30, still lives with them, and it gives me the creeps the way he just can't help with anything (my parents aren't getting any younger and my granny is as old as it gets) and god forbid I ever need to ask him a favor, or more likely beg for it.
Although I'm looking forward to seeing my family this Sunday (it's Mother's Day) I really wished I didn't have to see him. I don't want to fight; my mother doesn't deserve it, but I can't pretend it's OK any longer.
And if having to see him for Mother's Day wasn't bad enough, soon it'll be my birthday... Not inviting him to the party isn't an option.
Is this normal at all? How do YOU get on with your brothers or sisters? Hopefully they're not creeps like my brother...