i had a very weird dream last night
i dreamt, I had started hanging out with my ex Will again. He was being very nice and seemed to have matured. We had feelings for eachother once more and we started dating behind Tom's back. I was still with Tom and still loved him very much. But for some reason it had become obvious to me that I was to be with Will and he was the man I was going to marry. There was a part of the dream where I explained to some people in a car that yes I loved Tom but he was always going to be poor, and Will and I were lovers again in a healthy relationship and Will was going to make lots of money, so I had to marry Will. I was also at Will's house for much of the dream (of course it wasn't like his real house, it was much more fancy and big) I asked about his mother and he quietly replied "oh, i guess no one would have told you, but she died two days ago" i was so sad for her but mostly curious and explored a very very strange bathroom that used to be hers that i apparently had never seen before. It has all these strange shallow sinks and there was some kind of goo on my hands and maybe in my mouth that i was trying to wash off. I was so worried about how i was going to break the news to Tom. I wanted to stay with both of them and i wondered how long i could keep up hiding my relationship with Will from Tom. Will of course knew about me and Tom.
meanwhile I also had a situation of dogs at my house. There were two or three dogs at our house that I felt were welcome to stay there but my dad had decided he had enough of them being at our house all the time and wanted them to go home. I pleaded with him that there was no one at their original house, who would feed the poor dogs if we left them there? but he said sorry and thats just the way it should be so i brought them back. The dogs were also apart of some constellation i guess and i remember looking at a piece of paper full of dotted constellations and trying to figure out which one was which dog.
thinking about this dream makes me feel bad. I know i have been worrying a lot lately about my future and if i am going to go anywhere in life. I worry about making money. I have no problem with food stamps and section 8 now, but i dont want that to be my future forever. the other day i thought about how Will might get a good job as an economist and continue to buy the better and best of things for himself as he always was like that and Tom will probably stay at a very low level job and wont mind as he has always been poor. I love Tom so much and i hope that we can be together for a very very very long time but what if something happens between us and he doesn't stick around.......or if i get all cheaty again and leave him like i did Will.
i dreamt, I had started hanging out with my ex Will again. He was being very nice and seemed to have matured. We had feelings for eachother once more and we started dating behind Tom's back. I was still with Tom and still loved him very much. But for some reason it had become obvious to me that I was to be with Will and he was the man I was going to marry. There was a part of the dream where I explained to some people in a car that yes I loved Tom but he was always going to be poor, and Will and I were lovers again in a healthy relationship and Will was going to make lots of money, so I had to marry Will. I was also at Will's house for much of the dream (of course it wasn't like his real house, it was much more fancy and big) I asked about his mother and he quietly replied "oh, i guess no one would have told you, but she died two days ago" i was so sad for her but mostly curious and explored a very very strange bathroom that used to be hers that i apparently had never seen before. It has all these strange shallow sinks and there was some kind of goo on my hands and maybe in my mouth that i was trying to wash off. I was so worried about how i was going to break the news to Tom. I wanted to stay with both of them and i wondered how long i could keep up hiding my relationship with Will from Tom. Will of course knew about me and Tom.
meanwhile I also had a situation of dogs at my house. There were two or three dogs at our house that I felt were welcome to stay there but my dad had decided he had enough of them being at our house all the time and wanted them to go home. I pleaded with him that there was no one at their original house, who would feed the poor dogs if we left them there? but he said sorry and thats just the way it should be so i brought them back. The dogs were also apart of some constellation i guess and i remember looking at a piece of paper full of dotted constellations and trying to figure out which one was which dog.
thinking about this dream makes me feel bad. I know i have been worrying a lot lately about my future and if i am going to go anywhere in life. I worry about making money. I have no problem with food stamps and section 8 now, but i dont want that to be my future forever. the other day i thought about how Will might get a good job as an economist and continue to buy the better and best of things for himself as he always was like that and Tom will probably stay at a very low level job and wont mind as he has always been poor. I love Tom so much and i hope that we can be together for a very very very long time but what if something happens between us and he doesn't stick around.......or if i get all cheaty again and leave him like i did Will.
longlostsapper:
That's a tough one buddy, it sounds like you care for both of them a lot and are worried about your future when you need to worry about your future with one of them, I can not tell you what the right choice is only your heart mind and so can do that, you will be in my prayers
longlostsapper:
I can understand its not how you see it but it was at one time and that memory is still there