spazzing

so on top of all the shit that is already goin down in my life now my car is back in the shop, who knows how long it will be there and i really need it so i can get to all these appoinments and classes. also, my mac doesn't seem to be charging, something my be wrong with the batterie but i can't figure out how to get it out....i really hope i don't have to put any money into it. but now i can't use it so i can't access my stuff for school that i have on there or do my shit for mgf. also, in the middle of class yesterday, i got some really frightening and awful news from my doctor about some test results and now i need to make more appointments for more tests. FML!!!

I could not be more grateful for my boyfriend right now, seriously.i mean, i thought my life sucked before, but once he became my man, all this bullshit started happening. i also found out that my past crush jesse, now has a girlfriend (so i guess jesse wasnt into me after all and i was wasting my heart) good thing i don't care now since i have someone way better, but If i didn't have tom, i would be a totall mess and quite frankly i'd probably be contimplating suicide. but somehow, having him, everything feels way better. sure my life is shit, but it's all good cuz i have a great guy and am in love. plus, he's a big help when it comes to driving me around on the weekends. now if only we could get jobs.... I cannot afford to lose this boy. i'm really afraid to tell him about this pap smear result stuff.....

i got the shitty news from my doc right after i started painting this.....guess it kinda reflects my following mood


and once apon a time Tom wanted me to draw a waffle fucking a donut eating out a pancakes butt....