sparkymcnasty

emo

Today I woke up lost, confused and seriously rattled. I have been walking around in a fog thinking about life and where I am currently at in it. I'm not the most religious man but I do believe in a grater life than this. Could that be the text book Heaven I have read about? If so I hope I can have a table across from Elvis. Maybe if I'm lucky the good I have done will be enough, if not Ill take the table next to the banshees with the best pot.

So back to the fog I am in, I don't like it. However, I am here because of a long hard path of keeping people happy. Not just my loved ones .. No no no that would be to easy, I'm talking about everyone. Why? Seriously why do I care so much and have faith in humanity.. It tears you up on the inside to be this way. In case you don't know what it's like to be a caring person. It tears your soul apart when you reach out to help only to be rejected and instead becoming the enemy. I always seem to do this.

I don't know what I am, I just know I'm not happy. I know life gets better .. Or I hope so, In the meantime I guess I'm fucked. Maybe I should just watch robot chicken until I smile again. Lucky for me adult swim is having a marathon. Hooray for me things are getting better.