sparklecore

Whoo, finished my shitty job!! Sucks though, I have to go back again next Friday to collect the rest of my wages...grr...I just wanted it to be all over and done with tonight.

Other things annoying me...I still didn't talk to him. I've decided I'm not going to bother now. As hot as he is, I'm guessing he doesn't think that about me, so, well, that's it. If he wants to talk to me, fair enough. I'm in such a horrible mood, I've just been crying as well. It's A's birthday today and I can't even ring him up to wish him happy birthday because his stupid fucking schoolgirl girlfriend will get all pissy, and more to the point, I don't even think he would want to speak to me anyway. I sent him the letter, but no reply. I wasn't expecting one, but still. I think he hates me or something. God knows. Maybe he just can't deal with it all.

Third thing annoying me is me really. I'm so fucking 'cute'. The word cute annoys me so much I crossed it out in my dictionary. I want to be sexy dammit. Cute is what you call your niece (mine is the cutest btw hehe), cute is what you call your pet hamster, and I just hate it. I think it's because I'm short. Hmph. Even one of my friend's said tonight that she thought this boy was cute, so cute in fact that yeah she wouldn't say no. So apparently, being cute doesn't neccessarily mean you get some. Lol. How depressing. I'm whining, I know it's better than looking like you just got hit in the face with a brick, but c'mon. I'm almost 20, and even my mum thinks I look 15!!

I'm just low because I'm so single. I just wish I had a boyfriend. It's so lame. I swear I never had this trouble at home, but at Uni, god it's so ironically difficult to find someone. All those guys, and not one of them interested in me. I need a bitchslap, but everyone's either asleep, or having copious and earthmoving, mindblowing sex. Sigh.
Here's to being cute, being alone, and sleeping.

xx