sparkle

too fucked up to care anymore

so the only thing that seems to get any kind of reaction is jealousy, well thats fucking perfect. the moment i show my desire to anyone else you fucking show emotion. well, too fuckin little too late, my friend. it is not going to make any difference what you think anymore i have to fucking walk away from inevitable self-destruction. sounds like im in some crappy ass gen x movie, well gen y, perhaps. fuck it.....this dress used to fit me, oh it must have been all the cocaine i consumed. obvious sarcasm there, folks. hur hur, this sayday is skihpin...what a bunch of fuckin tools. if anyone cares, its beyond me why they do. does dignity count for anything? can i still be dignified while i fuckin cant feel anything?

soo much for self censorship, hopefully this will all turn out to be a cosmic april fools joke on me...