sparkle

I feel somewhat diconnected with the site, nowadays. Not to sound like a whiney-ass, but sometimes I don't feel like I belong here. I have my own suspicions to why I am even on this site, but I will keep them to myself, because they are kinda paranoid, but oh well...yeah, so sometimes this site gives me a complex, not that it isnt great fun to look at naked bodies, lurk on the boards, and sometimes participate in the groups...bah, yeah, not fishing for compliments. it always seems that way when I put myself down but as a kid, i was considered "ugly" and as silly as it sounds, has in some way affected my body image hence, the "FUCK YOU" on my stats box. my current weight, though is around 120 (it was about 135 in the two sets i have, definately not thin) and my height is 5'4"...not overweight by anyone's standard but sometimes I feel like for my tit size I should be 8 times skinnier because most of the chicks with comparable bodies have bigger tatties, except for mary who has TIG OLE BITTIES but has got a very slender frame (5'7" and 117, how do you do it???), lucky girl!!!

enough of that, just had to get it off my chest (no puns about small titties, LOL) does this entry make me sound hella unstable. so sick about talking about myself, but and i know you find this hard to believe i dont have very many friends, thus do not do very many social things, so the only thing i have to talk about is myself making the entries sound oh so egocentric. on meds, btw, so the depression is getting better, i guess a little more on EDGE, but hey, thats how it goeees.....jesus christ i whine too fucking much. some things will never change, its cliche but oh so true.

do i repeat myself?
do i repeat myself?
do i repeat myself?