sparkle

wow its been almost a month....

hmmm, id post something meaningful, but i really don't have much to say anymore. i mean, i do, but i don't. depression is not cool, nor fun, nor is it anything that anyone wants to hear about. it just sucks.

my life is a whirling vortex of my negativity that opproses me into feeling not worth a shit. why do i do this to myself. take for example, tonight. okay, checking another site similar to this in terms of blogging, the "friends" page...yeah there is a certain person who shall remain nameless that posted something she created. well, it is absolutely stunning. the kicker is, all of this that she did was some shit that i could do (macromedia flash) given the time and the creative. it is the "kid rock syndrome" talent (well, thats a stretch) but no creative outlet to spew forth the knowledg..who knows. thar be a lot of words for someone who aint got much to say...