sparkle

today is a sad day

my grandmother died from a car accident. i feel like i should feel worse. we wernt that close but man it is still my grandmother. grieving is such a stupid thing anyway, theyre not going to come back. if anything it is a pleasent escape. why should we sit around and feel sorry for ourselves. i dont feel like i appreciated her enough, though. she had a good run, but still the little things im going to miss most. like how she would say everything that we liked was " just a buncha mess" and other silly shit like that. i will miss her.