spark_of_life

That christmas party was a clear definition of ridiculous, Me dancing in my socks giving the dj shit cause he wont play music I can twist to, is the reason why you should have been there. the fact that the ramada gave me a a hotel room and a reason to get that drunk is their fault, i pretty much told the general manager that he was a joke because there was no more alcohol at 5am. that needs to happen every week.

Other than that, im just working, comming home, then going to work, its pretty repetitious, and boring, such is life. deal with it.

Fucking hell, i need something more than this to happen to me and this town is not the place for it to happen. Its time to get out, its always been time to get out, but fucking really someone save me from this repeating maelstrom of people.

I cant seem to decide on this, i dont know if its the past or what i want the future to be, that keeps me from them, but either way Im here, and no ones there.....no one that would make a differnce anyways

with honor has always fucking been fucking awsome, but they havent got old, which makes me smile, and not many things do that. music in general has been boring lately, but then again so has everything.

Xmas means no money and fuck do i ever have to start shopping. cds are being made for every one. money shouldent be such a bitch but it is, and im scared to death of starting to deal with the real world.

I think im going to read atonement again....that book made me feel........happy? not sad? like there was something to look forward to or was? either way it was better than this.

help me find it.....

Seymour