spanked

I creep my self out someitmes

I gotta stop eating so much...but food, soo good.

Maybe tomorrow I'll go for a walk. But when Im alone with my thoughts i start thinking, and it makes me depressed, is that weird? should I be worried? Am I one paranoid mutha fucka?

Smashing Pumpkins kick ass

I think i may watch the original star wars triliogy for the millionth time cause i cant think of anything to do.
I wish i was in college, my life is goin nowhere. I want to get a BS in comp sci, then go to this school in Texas that teaches game development. Cause John Carmack is my god, i didnt know what i wanted to do with my life until I thought about designing games for a living. I play enough of them I might as well make something i enjoy playing. But college costs money, money which i dont have. Damn capatilisim. fsck it all. I have a plan to get the money for college, but that requirs me losing alot of weight and getting into shape other than round. I need a good ass kicking to get motivated.

I rant way too much on here, i wonder if anyone reads this? It makes me feel better after i do though.