sovereign

Love is such an interesting thing. It moves mountains, gives strength to the weakest, fills one with hope and even...can be our down fall... I've never really knew what love was really, just that it was something I always wanted, and in truth turns out I had it in my grasp once, but i was a fool and let it go, regardless, I learned that love is not selfish, rather it should be out of acts of selflessness... I wrote that special someone a letter, not really ever expecting it to ever reach his hands, but the point in writing it, was to get it off my chest, bc sometimes keeping it in is what will ultimately will kill us.

truth is, I'm not always happy, sometimes, I have to fight within my own head to keep my head above water... The difference is that i let it all out, I will cry for a long time, scream morn whatever, but an hour later, I will feel so much better that I let it all out, so I tell you this, DONT KEEP THINGS INSIDE. If you re upset about something, let it out. cry,scream, go running anything, but whatever you do, dont keep it in... you can do what i do, and blog bout it and write your hears content and gt it all out... Promise you.. that things will be so much easier.

Smile. no matter what ailes you, it will pass, and you will grow so much from it. <3


heres the letter I wrote, I hope that some of you understand, that it isnt in attempts to win someone back, rather, its more to show how much i love this individual, so much so that i am willing to let them go.




Im letting you go. I will always love you, it was proven..even despite all these years, and after what I didyou never ever ever left my heartall the fail relationships, and even though I told myself and others I stopped caring, there was always a glimmer of the truth peeking through..

people told me I was too good for you, but in my heart It didnt matter what you looked like, what you did or who you wereyou were beautiful to me..and you made me happiest even when times seemed rough.In truth, you were too good for me..

You would hold my hand as we fell asleep, and I must admit that I felt safest thenthose times you would make me soup when I was sick..I only got better bc I loved you so much..Those times you would tuck me into bed and kiss my forehead, I never slept better, the time you broke into my car, and placed sunflowers in the driver seat so I would see it..on my birthdayYou were so wonderful to me, and I took advantage of it, I let you go out of my uncertainty and it took so long for me to realize I had what I always wanted in my hands and I let it go.

Im sorry I hurt you, sorry I made you into a hard exterior person.. I dont think my apology will ever mean anything to you, but I hope you knowI mean it

I know that you will find an amazing girl, One that is deserving of your love, and one that will make you smile, and will make you forget all your sadness, and as much as it hurts, I will smile with tears in my eyes knowingthat you are finally happyeven if it is without me.

It was what I chose

THAT will be the last act I will give to you. It has always been said, that if you love someone, that you should let them go, so Ill set you free again, like that beautiful bird I will always want to catch but will never.. I wish you the best, I really do. I hope you find someone that just makes you so happy that you forget who I ever was..If I could I would give you my own happiness just so that you could find someone. Thats love. I was selfish once, and now, I want to be selfless.

The sad part is, you wont ever see this, you will go about with your life, not even noticing that you havent seen me.

I love you.

christy.