These past few days have been rough
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on my birthday my ex bf broke my heart beyond belief by kissing another girl infront of me. when i took him outside and spilled my guts, i got shut down, he said that he didnt believe i loved him..which was ironic to me bc if some of you guys have been reading my blogs, you know a bit back i admitted to falling in love..i remember crying so much and punching my car to the point where there was blood dripping off my knuckles..and then after he has the nerve to try to talk to me...its like a slap in the face. Im hurting beyond belief right now..but i try to pretend im strong.
he tried talking to me this weekend and it took every bit of my being to not cry infront of him. instead i told him not to talk to me. i dont think i can ever forget when i tried to kiss him and he yelled stop after he has kisssed me. he told me he thinks about me everyday and always checks my social networks to see what i am doing and where and whom im with, so i deleted him off them so he couldnt see a thing. but he tried re-adding me. i left it all pending. the same night of my birthday he sent me a text at 2 am telling me "babe you took this way wrong"
rage grew inside me but i remained silent
i dont understand his thinking, if you care about someone you should want to be with them, but he refuses. i feel so low.:/
I wont ever forgive him for this. he knows i hate him. but he doesnt realize that i just wear a mask to cover up my pain and how ashamed i am that i even tried.:/
what do i do..?
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on my birthday my ex bf broke my heart beyond belief by kissing another girl infront of me. when i took him outside and spilled my guts, i got shut down, he said that he didnt believe i loved him..which was ironic to me bc if some of you guys have been reading my blogs, you know a bit back i admitted to falling in love..i remember crying so much and punching my car to the point where there was blood dripping off my knuckles..and then after he has the nerve to try to talk to me...its like a slap in the face. Im hurting beyond belief right now..but i try to pretend im strong.
he tried talking to me this weekend and it took every bit of my being to not cry infront of him. instead i told him not to talk to me. i dont think i can ever forget when i tried to kiss him and he yelled stop after he has kisssed me. he told me he thinks about me everyday and always checks my social networks to see what i am doing and where and whom im with, so i deleted him off them so he couldnt see a thing. but he tried re-adding me. i left it all pending. the same night of my birthday he sent me a text at 2 am telling me "babe you took this way wrong"
rage grew inside me but i remained silent
i dont understand his thinking, if you care about someone you should want to be with them, but he refuses. i feel so low.:/
I wont ever forgive him for this. he knows i hate him. but he doesnt realize that i just wear a mask to cover up my pain and how ashamed i am that i even tried.:/
what do i do..?
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cuprinus:
This guy just wants his cake and eat it too! He is trying to string you along. Be strong, and kick his ass to the curb! He wants to play his little game with these other girls, while keeping you on the back burner for when he is ready for you. He is one of these idiots that is going to understand what he had till it is gone. Sorry you are having to go through this, but you will come away stronger. Just try not to let this experience harden your heart. Were here if you ever need to talk.
revkain:
Ignore him, move on and spend time with friends and family. They can help the most. Also do not associate with anybody that talks to him. Just don't do what alot of people do and try to drown your sorrows, so go out pamper yourself some and just try to think happy thoughts. Message me if you ever wish to talk. Take care.