yup, this is going to be one of those reflections blogs...
I found an old video of myself while i was living in Portland, it was so weird watching it bc halfway through i realized I didnt even recognize the girl in it.
I was so childish then, and the worst is knowing what happened shortly after it makes me get goose bumps
http://stickam.com/member/viewMedia.do?mId=183840962&mediaowner=true
I sat there and really smiled to myself after the video was done, im not the girl i used to be and i am very happy to say that. I may have lost the two friends in that video, but i finally realized that i did nothing wrong to have had that happen, one was a boyfriend, who i just fell out of love with, and things just got really sticky, in turn we ended up just..cutting each other off. the other was a brother to me, but living with him was a living nightmare, granted i miss the piss out of him, but i know that that bridge was burned long ago.
It does no one good to hold on to a past, bc we shall move forward if we dwell upon it.
"As we grow up we learn that even the one person that wasn't suppose to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more then once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame your new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing by too fast and you'll eventually lose someone you love."
I look at myself now and see that i have truely become a stronger individual bc of all of this, i have a pair of brand new eyes so to speak, and of course the most important thing of all, i have learned to value myself without a doubt,. so i do not regret the fall out, as hard as that sounds, sometimes, you have to cut out the people that drag you down.
i have a job i love, i have a small group of friends who i know love me for me, and best i have a boyfriend who values me and my heart and feelings. <3
<3
I found an old video of myself while i was living in Portland, it was so weird watching it bc halfway through i realized I didnt even recognize the girl in it.
I was so childish then, and the worst is knowing what happened shortly after it makes me get goose bumps
http://stickam.com/member/viewMedia.do?mId=183840962&mediaowner=true
I sat there and really smiled to myself after the video was done, im not the girl i used to be and i am very happy to say that. I may have lost the two friends in that video, but i finally realized that i did nothing wrong to have had that happen, one was a boyfriend, who i just fell out of love with, and things just got really sticky, in turn we ended up just..cutting each other off. the other was a brother to me, but living with him was a living nightmare, granted i miss the piss out of him, but i know that that bridge was burned long ago.
It does no one good to hold on to a past, bc we shall move forward if we dwell upon it.
"As we grow up we learn that even the one person that wasn't suppose to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more then once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame your new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing by too fast and you'll eventually lose someone you love."
I look at myself now and see that i have truely become a stronger individual bc of all of this, i have a pair of brand new eyes so to speak, and of course the most important thing of all, i have learned to value myself without a doubt,. so i do not regret the fall out, as hard as that sounds, sometimes, you have to cut out the people that drag you down.
i have a job i love, i have a small group of friends who i know love me for me, and best i have a boyfriend who values me and my heart and feelings. <3
<3
violentpatriot:
your blog made me feel good 