sovereign

things have been a little harsh lately. the boy and i ended. I've sat at home listening to city and colour just watching the rain and painting. I know it sounds a lilttle emo but i dont care right now. its really odd when i start to cry, I start shaking and...i hold in the loud sobs i feel and it actually hurts. like physical pain.


i should be excited for my new set sense i was actually sober for this one hah but i just well feel blah really


basically what i feel all in one song gotta love city and colour

day old hate

So let's face it this was never what you wanted
But I know it's fun to pretend
Now blank stares and empty threats
Are all I have, they're all I have.

So drown me and if you can
Or we could just have conversation.
And I fall, I fall, I falter
But I'll find you before I drift away

Now you still speak of day old hate
Though your whole world has gone up into flames
And isn't it great to find that you're really worth nothing
And how safe it is to feel safe.

So drown me and if you can
Or we could just have conversation.
And I fall, I fall, I falter
But I'll find you before I drift away

The things we do just to stay alive
The things we do just to stay alive
The things we do just to stay alive
The things we do just to keep ourselves alive.


i actually slept with a teddy bear last night while he slept outside in our living room...i had to cover my face to quiet myself...jeez doesn't help that i've been drowning myself in whiskey every night since the break up.