sourgrapes

Man I know I'm starting to sound like a goth. Everyday goes by and it just gets worse. Just to get up and face the day takes so much. I just don't care about life. It just seems pointless to put any effort. All I ever had was me. I carry this heap of shit inside me everyday. It feels like I'm rotting and all I can do is pick at old wounds and drink until I feel worse. I keep hoping for rock bottom but the lower I go I see more and more that there is no such thing.. My life aint never amounted to shit. I aint shit and I aint never going to be shit. I'm just a big fuckin waste of time. I just wanna sink down lower and lower until there aint nowhere left to go. Just drink myself into a fuckin hole and die alone and bitter, just like I've lived.