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I went to my command ordered AA meeting today and I realised that I am an alcoholic. But that's it. I don't plan to do anything about it. I can't see myself not drinking. Even if I wanted to be sober I don't think it would be possible unless I ditched my wife, desserted my crew and locked myself into a box for the rest of my life. I've identified my triggers and I see why I drink. They told me that alcoholics of my variety are the hardest to rehab because I don't drink for the fun or to help me cope with problems. I drink with the intent to destroy myself. And I know this.how do you stop a problem that stems from a desire to self destruct? I don't think ill go back there.