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My wife came down this weekend. It was great to see her after 5 months,
but now its even harder being without her. We went to a 3 day concert
down here. Bands like papa roach and shit like that. It was fun for what
it was. Everclear played and I can get down with them. We got beer
munchies at two in the morning...
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3 weeks after my underage drinking incident I finally got word that I'm going to mast. This fuckin sux. Its like being grounded. No electronics, no phone calls, no smoking. Just sit in a room all day. What sux is I won't be able to talk to wife while I'm on it, and I miss her enough as it is.god, its been over 4 months...
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Huh. Things are just kinda crawling by over here. I start the second
hardest academic school in the navy on thursday. I'm kinda nervous. Its
has 45% fail out rate and I've worked my future out so that its the
cornerstone of my career. If I can pass this school and do four years of
on the job training ill be licensed to do the...
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Ok. I'm better now. I took a couple of days and recalibrated myself. I have been sober for a little over a week now. Its really hard not drinking.its not that I've been drinking a lot since I joined the military anyway but now that I'm not trying to drink its on my mind and I get the shakes. I'm weird like that. I can...
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Man I know I'm starting to sound like a goth. Everyday goes by and it just gets worse. Just to get up and face the day takes so much. I just don't care about life. It just seems pointless to put any effort. All I ever had was me. I carry this heap of shit inside me everyday. It feels like I'm rotting and all...
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I went to my command ordered AA meeting today and I realised that I am an alcoholic. But that's it. I don't plan to do anything about it. I can't see myself not drinking. Even if I wanted to be sober I don't think it would be possible unless I ditched my wife, desserted my crew and locked myself into a box for the rest...
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I went to my command ordered AA meeting today and I realised that I am an alcoholic. But that's it. I don't plan to do anything about it. I can't see myself not drinking. Even if I wanted to be sober I don't think it would be possible unless I ditched my wife, desserted my crew and locked myself into a box for the rest...
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I'm so depressed. I feel like I don't belong anywhere. Its like I can never get my shit together. I just keep getting fucked up. I always was a fuck up. All I ever heard was I have potential and I'm so bright and I could do anything I wanted. I never did shit. This is my last shot and I'm fucking blowing it again....
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Sometimes I kinda like it that noone reads this shit. Oh well. A little companionship is always good to kill some time though. Oh well. So I had to go to legal dept. Today for my unauthorized absence and underage drinking. They interrogated me like I actually did something wrong. Shit got me so fucking pissed. I was interrogated in new york facing aggravated felony...
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