soulsurvivor98

Haven't been on or posted in quite some time so I just thought I would take a breif brake from my insanity to update this thing... Been having a lot going on lately, found out the girl I was seeing was just basically using me; another god-damned fault of being a "nice guy"...i gotta stop doin' that shit already, work on being more of an asshole. But oh well, i guess these things happen. After that I got the news i am being price out of my place so am now looking for a new one and lastly, my grandfather was diagnosed with terminal cancer. This is obviously the worst of all the shitty news and I am now gonna be flying home to Peru next week to see him and spend some time with him and the rest of my family. Been quite some time since I last visited Peru. I truly do love it out there cause my entire family is there and there is just a very laid back attitude towrds things down there. But this time will be different, a bit on the somber side due to the news. When I get back I will start looking for a place, hopefully on the west side of Manhattan and close to my job. So now I have all this on my mind and then some. Been drinking a hell of a lot more lately but that doesnt help things much. Oh well, just another chapter in life I have to conquer and I will do it. i have no choice but to do it since I'm too smart to just throw it all in and say "fuck it". Some say ignorance is bliss, i guess it must be because without that passion, that drive to make somethig out of yourself, i would be happy with a regular 9-5 making barely anything and living out in the middle of nowhere for close to no rent at all. God dammit, I need a drink. Sorry for the random ranting but I guess I should have warned you all at the beginning that i'm also a little high as well.......