soulsurvivor98

Good morning everybody... For once in a very rare time, I actually got to sleep in until a decent time this morning. I normally wake up at 4am every day (m-f) to get to the gym in time for my 6am clients. Last night ALL THREE of my morning clients I had booked called out sick so not only did I get to sleep in but I also get paid for all three sessions anyways (24-hour cancellation policy)! Problem now is I woke up somewhat depressed today, not a hundred percent sure as to why but I think it has to do with a lot of shit i've been keeping pent up lately and it's finally coming down crashing on me now that I actually have the time to think about it all. That bottle of jack is sitting there, staring at me, calling my name and it sure does look tempting but if I start now I will be wrecked before noon and my whole day will be a waste, plus I still have to go into work later for my evening clients. Shit, sorry for bitching in your ears, not that I think many people read this thing anyways, but I'm just frustrated today...perhaps it's the approaching holidays and knowing that i'll be sitting them out solo this year... maybe it's the lack of a love life, MAYBE i'm just being paranoid from the little wake & bake session I had earlier this morning...in the end I think i should MAYBE stop being such a little bitch and suck it up and go on with life already cause I've done so so far and I guess I'm doing ok... but maybe just ONE shot of jack wouldnt help either....