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I'm wide awake and searching, neglecting the task at hand. Choosing instead to waste away the time until it's the wee hours of the morn before I actually start the homework that's due in 2.5 hours.
Still manic. Still too many broken images inside my head.
Pissed off. I called Dave twice to say goodnight to my children. It's after midnight and four hours after the last time I called... still have yet to receive a call back. God I hate him.
I'm wanting. It doesn't matter how many times I get laid, I always want more. I feel like that girl in Black Snake Moan. I got the absolute life fucked out of me last night and again this morning. And all day today I've felt like a string ready to snap.
I am ridiculous.
I want to cut my hair. I want to pierce my cheeks. I want to disappear. I want to fade away.
I'm wide awake and searching, neglecting the task at hand. Choosing instead to waste away the time until it's the wee hours of the morn before I actually start the homework that's due in 2.5 hours.
Still manic. Still too many broken images inside my head.
Pissed off. I called Dave twice to say goodnight to my children. It's after midnight and four hours after the last time I called... still have yet to receive a call back. God I hate him.
I'm wanting. It doesn't matter how many times I get laid, I always want more. I feel like that girl in Black Snake Moan. I got the absolute life fucked out of me last night and again this morning. And all day today I've felt like a string ready to snap.
I am ridiculous.
I want to cut my hair. I want to pierce my cheeks. I want to disappear. I want to fade away.