soulblackened

Well,
I am hoping to shoot another SG set sometime within the next few weeks but its hard to find a photog that would work i think im so financially shattered right now, or I'd try to shoot with Alissa again, but instead of that im taking just about any payable shoot whether it leaves my dignity intact or not. I just had a shoot with the most unprofessional photog i ever had that made me feel so uncomfortable but it paid so i did it anyway.. I got offered a shoot in Cali that would be $4,800 is i make the cut between a few other girls and i need the money for my son so bad, but i dont know where ill get the money to make the trip there. and if i get there and i dont get chosen ill have done it for nothing. ugh. and all the shoots that people want to pay me for are across country. Im kinda screwed and im even considering becoming a dancer and i never thought id do that. I am not sure i have THAT much confidence lol. That and my bf already dated a stripper and i dont want to be like any other girl hes been with. Shit is just gay right now.