sorrowsjoy

Well definitely time to update though lately I seem to be at a loss for words and am suffering from writers block--I'd pull my hair out in frustration but I don't have enough to do that with lol--But yes we (my family) are still living out of a hotel--It's been over 2 months--What can I say but kennel fever--These walls seem to be closing in and while I'm a pro at being isolated physically and mentally even I am chomping at the bit--The past week my night terrors have become worse and apparently this past Tuesday I was sleepwalking--And the hilarious part was I was here on SG,having conversations with my bro and sis,and smoking up a storm--And I don't remember a damn thing--That's when I know my past is rearing it's ugly head though it has made me tougher in dealing with stressful situations--Whether this is good or bad is certainly a good question--And as for the name change I figured it suited me better though I can always change it back if you,my friends,prefer the other--But anyways I'm feeling very vulnerable right now and it pisses me off--Perhaps it's because most people cannot handle me when I'm feeling so sensitive and you can imagine not to many people want to or are willing to listen to my sordid past--Understandable seeing the topic isn't pleasant but it sure makes for a lonely life--A part of me insists on just accepting that in some respects I will always be apart but the other side is angry demanding that I challenge others to accept me entirely--Yes just another Aries at war with herself--And an April fool to boot.....