sorrow

OK SO I AM AT A POINT IN MY LIFE WHERE I NEED A MAJOR MAJOR CHANGE!!! LIKE I NEED TO UP AND MOVE TO JAPAN OR SOME SHIT! I AM IN A RUTT, I AM OVER EMOTIONAL, I AM OVERWHELMED, I AM STRESSED AND TO BE HONEST IN DEPRESSED AGAIN AND THAT SCARES ME!! I AM AT A LOSS OF WHERE TO START...I HAVE ALL OF THESE AMBITIONS AND MOTIVATIONS AND I KNOW THIS IS MY TIME TO SHINE, TO DISCOVER MYSELF AND WHAT IM MENT FOR IN LIFE, BUT I DONT KNOW WHERE TO START!!! I DONT HAVE THE MONEY TO UP AND LEAVE AND IM JUST FLUSSTERED!! I WISH I COULD HAVE THIS GREAT OPPORTUNITY WALK INTO MY LIFE, A BIG MODELING JOB AOR A MOVIE GIG, AND INTERNSHIP, SOMETHING WONDERFUL AND PROMISING TO TAKE ME OUT OF THE ENVIORNMENT IM IN AND CHALLENGE ME TO DO BETTER, TO GAIN NEW SKILLD, MEET NEW PEOPLE AND EXPLORE THE WORLD!! BUT LIFE DOESNT WORKTHAT WAY UNFORTUNATELY. I GUESS I NEED HELP ON SORTING MY THOUGHTS......I HAVW BEEN LOOKING FOR THE FREE CHUNK OF TIME WITHOUT COMKMITMENTS TO DO SOMETHING AMAZING BUT NOW I DONT HAVE THE FUCKIN MONEY AND I HATE IT!! ANY ADVICE , HELP, WORDS OF WISODM WOULD BE VERY MUCH APPRECIATED!!!