how do you recover from a death? i assumed it would get better but it doesnt. when the one person who loves you no matter what is gone. Its the most lonely feeling in the world, because unconditional love cant be replicated.
im numb, just a shell. nothing matters, i cant be happy, i cant feel sad .....just lost. i dont care.
but like a clown i put on a show, the pain is real even if nobody knows.
i cant talk to anyone because nothing can comfort me, my friends change the subject if i try to share because its too much to take in. so i smile on the outside.
the only thing that keeps me going is i have a vast amount of love inside and nobody to take it, to share it. it makes me happy to make others happy, to feel important to anyone. truly important.
dont get me wrong i love life....but i dont know how to live anymore. i constantly feel cold inside...like i died too.
im numb, just a shell. nothing matters, i cant be happy, i cant feel sad .....just lost. i dont care.
but like a clown i put on a show, the pain is real even if nobody knows.
i cant talk to anyone because nothing can comfort me, my friends change the subject if i try to share because its too much to take in. so i smile on the outside.
the only thing that keeps me going is i have a vast amount of love inside and nobody to take it, to share it. it makes me happy to make others happy, to feel important to anyone. truly important.
dont get me wrong i love life....but i dont know how to live anymore. i constantly feel cold inside...like i died too.
this is so very true about artists. i live in the moment alot and... its all about the feeling of the moment
"because they only get happiness from instant gratification."