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Sunday Jun 25, 2006

Jun 25, 2006
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Hey folks,

Well, I am alive...mostly. Yeah, you could say I had a helluva scare this past week. I had a total of 5 seizures and landed myself in the ER. I have never had any neurological problems before and they didn't find any signs that I have epilepsy...so I don't really know what the fuck happened. All I know is it scared the shit outta me, my wife, and my family. I'm still pretty scared and even had what I believe to be a full-blown panic attack when I went back to work. I'm also afraid most nights to go to sleep, as the seizures began while I was sleeping. I may have fallen out of bed and hit my head which triggered them. Apparently, I had told my wife, " Hun, I hit my head and it hurts." She rolled over and saw me unconscious on the floor next to the bed....and could NOT wake me up. So we don't know if I fell out of bed, hit my head, and then had the seizures, or if I had a seizure and consequently fell out bed. Either way...nightime is not fun for me anymore.

My memory and spelling have also been affected. I couldn't remember certain events that had happened earlier in the day, and I even now have trouble with certain things. It sucks...bad. I don't feel like me anymore. I'm on so much damn medication that I might as well be an empty shell. Drugs for seizures, acute anxiety/panic attacks, depression, high blood pressure, anemia, etc. I'm a shadow of the man I once was.....

All is not doom and gloom though. Work has been pleasantly fullfilling and I feel good having routine and normalcy in my day. I have also been out for short hikes in the woods trying to put things in perspective. I took some photos of blossoming flowers and butterflies and am pretty pleased with the results. I think there is some irony of blossoming, growth, and metamorphasis within the photos....enjoy.









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Thanks again for all your well-wishes, warm thoughts and "get betters"! I will, I'm on the road to recovery and won't let this shit keep me down for long. blackeyed
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phunkybrewster:
miss you! come talllllllllllk to me biggrin im plannin a vacation thingy to up north with the boy this summa. august im thinkin. big fest up there eh? anyhooooooooooo lets talk smile
Jul 2, 2006
phunkybrewster:
heyyyyyyy! where are you? frown come talk to me silly! i have a question about the shows im sending! also, what shows are you hitting up? so willie nelson and john fogerty are gonna be playin at dte and altho its a shitter of a venue, i think think imho that they are both awesome live, you should go to that. also just announced was a peacefest down here, and wavy gravy is mc'ing it, canned heat, country joe mcdonald, the hollys, etc. old skewlers and im all about that stuff. check out my list on myspace of what i wana or am goin to smile
take care <3
big hugs
A~
Jul 6, 2006

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