being bored makes me feel queasy. I HATE it... but my apathy is certainly impressive.
I think I want to get a labret; been going back & forth for months... I think it's time, I need to make myself feel hot again. I realy really want my new tattoo, but can't seem to save enough money for now. grrr. if only I didn't love clothes and didn't drinkway too much, I would be sooo rich!
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tangledupinblue:
29 dollars can get you a nice bottle of fortified wine!
beckadarling:
mmm...
grammar!
rolling papers!
manu chau!
sounds like my plans for the night!
grammar!
rolling papers!
manu chau!
sounds like my plans for the night!
hoping for something distracting this weekend. I hope my $6.47 will entertain me for the next three days...
dunx:
$6.47 huh?
Does that mean we can't have some whiskeys this Sunday, say?
Does that mean we can't have some whiskeys this Sunday, say?
I got pixies tickets! yay! now i have 1.5 months to get really really excited... 
So I finally decided to move back to SF in july. I have been saying I would for months and months, but I kept putting the decision off. Portland makes me do that, allows and lulls me into stagnant daydreaming and never actually paying attention to the time as it...
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So I finally decided to move back to SF in july. I have been saying I would for months and months, but I kept putting the decision off. Portland makes me do that, allows and lulls me into stagnant daydreaming and never actually paying attention to the time as it...
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vutek:
oops. sorry. but tell me more about what you consider "a truly superior drawing pen".
did you grow-up in RI?
did you grow-up in RI?
vutek:
oh no.
i'm the art supply pen king, my friend.
i'm the art supply pen king, my friend.
mad that the weather is lovely again. it just rubs it in that I am sad. found out yesterday my cousin committed suicide. don't know how yet. he was never happy, and I wish I had known him better so maybe his life could have been a little warmer. you know, I was just feeling so wonderful, I needed something to bring me down. haha.
dunx:
Hey darlin. I'm sorry about your cousin, that's really tough.
Sorry I haven't found you yet. My thesis etc. has been just killing me lately. The CSO's kicked me out of the library last Saturday when they were closing. (This was a first for me, on the weekend). But I really do want to get together soon for a drink or 8 or somethin fun. I need it. Anyway, take care, and I'll talk to you soon...if I don't die...of being awesome.
oh yeah, Renn Fayre pep rally is this Friday. heh.
Sorry I haven't found you yet. My thesis etc. has been just killing me lately. The CSO's kicked me out of the library last Saturday when they were closing. (This was a first for me, on the weekend). But I really do want to get together soon for a drink or 8 or somethin fun. I need it. Anyway, take care, and I'll talk to you soon...if I don't die...of being awesome.
oh yeah, Renn Fayre pep rally is this Friday. heh.
ack. I drank a LOT last night. danced for hours, was shocked to hear it was almost 4, i thought it was maybe like 1.30, got home at 4.20 and ate some pizza. ran into a really old friend from a past life at the ohm, he had crashed on the couch for like 6 months (!) at a place I lived a few years...
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quotidian:
I'm really happy to hear you had a wonderful time - you've seemed unhappy lately, and you deserve a good conversation or two.
I think I'm getting sick. Last night was supposed to be a heavy drinking mouth-running knock-stuff-over extravaganza, but it ended up being three beers in three hours which left me feeling queasy. Tonight was an attempt to make up for last night, but alas, more of the same. I think that, mostly, I'm bored and restless at the moment - winter is such a good season for boredom. I need a road trip and maybe some time at the ocean.
But in other news, I met a cute woman. Yay me.
I think I'm getting sick. Last night was supposed to be a heavy drinking mouth-running knock-stuff-over extravaganza, but it ended up being three beers in three hours which left me feeling queasy. Tonight was an attempt to make up for last night, but alas, more of the same. I think that, mostly, I'm bored and restless at the moment - winter is such a good season for boredom. I need a road trip and maybe some time at the ocean.
But in other news, I met a cute woman. Yay me.
voltaire:
everyone is worthy of love. everyone. what I said is true. I swear.....
I'm making valentines for all my friends today. well, not all, just the best ones. I meant to do it all week but kept putting it off. the ones I have to mail should arrive on monday... is that shameful? I am soo dreading tomorrow. My romantic life has been a soap opera for the past 6 months or so, and it's only getting worse....
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I love this weather, it makes me feel lighter. but it is so incongruous with my sadness I almost wish it would start raining again. why can't i write a single good story when I have so many great ones racing around my head?
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6underground:
I always find I write best when I'm not supposed to. Like during work, etc. Maybe a change of scenery might inspire you?
soph:
I think I need to focus my observation; you're right, it always seems sharpest at the most inconvenient times. sigh
I am so miserable I feel like I am about to dissolve. often I wonder why I stay in this city with so many fucking bridges.
screaming inside and nothing but silent tears on the outside...
god. it all hit me at once and all of a sudden I'm underwater.
screaming inside and nothing but silent tears on the outside...
god. it all hit me at once and all of a sudden I'm underwater.
dunx:
yeah, today was tough. totally worthless, too. mostly cause last night was so good though...oh well. i'm improving slowly. hope you're better too.
i'm gonna need a day or two to get a lot of shit done, but sometime this week I should be free to kick it if you are.
ok, off to bed with me. gonna be a long week.
i'm gonna need a day or two to get a lot of shit done, but sometime this week I should be free to kick it if you are.
ok, off to bed with me. gonna be a long week.
must find a new pic... this one's sooo dopey and it's the only one I have now... ick. I guess when I get home I'll have to figure out how to work the scanner. bah, technology!
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soph:
totally...
beaky:
I didn't find what I wrote way back in your journal....
But I don't think I know ya from anywere.
But I don't think I know ya from anywere.
BUT IT IS EASIER TO BECOME BORED THAN IT IS TO BECOME ACTIVE