Saturday Dec 10, 2005

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ok: update.

my dear friend donavon called me about 2 this morning to say goodbye and that he loves me (he lives in montana). i couldn't sway him; i called him back countless times and we talked once more. he was on his way home to kill himself. i don't know if he "succeeded" or not. his mailbox was full but now it is cleared. i am not sure whether that should make me hopeful or not. i called the police department in his town and they said they would call me with any info. they haven't called yet. i have no fucking clue what's going on. i love him so much and i want him to be alive.

fuck. i just lost a friend less than 3 months ago. their ages combined are still under 50.

*update #2*
donavon is not dead. hearing his voice at 12.43 this morning made me happier than i have ever been in my whole entire life. i hope we can try to make things better for him... he sounded exhausted and crushed but i am so so so so so SO happy that he is ok!
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wallace:
man, i am definitely at war with myself. i do nothing but lie to myself. i mean, i'm upset with someone else, but really it's my own fault for putting up with it. frown
hmm, i'm not sure where i want to eat on wednesday, by yes let's definitely have dinner someplace. probably thai food biggrin
celery:
Committing suicide is not something that you do to yourself. Committing suicide is something that you do to your friends and loved ones. It is the most selfish heartless act anyone can ever commit. No one deserves to be scared like I imagine you were. It is not ok to hurt or threaten people with the weapon of their love for you. That is what my best friend told me at a moment in my life when, how shall I say, I needed to hear it.

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