i feel like i just can't do this anymore. every time you love someone, you give away a piece of yourself that you won't ever have back, no matter the outcome... i feel like i have nothing left for myself, let alone someone else. it was hard, yesterday. i've never been so desperate for somebody and had him turn away. i miss portland, and a...
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things i would probably be dead without:
-deadlines. no this is not meant to be a stupid pun. i cannot function without extremely pressing deadlines.
-music. duh.
-lack of funds. surely this has saved my life more times than i can count, in sooo many ways.
-apathy. it sucks but it keeps me from killing myself, or maybe other people too.
-the good ol' telephone......
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-deadlines. no this is not meant to be a stupid pun. i cannot function without extremely pressing deadlines.
-music. duh.
-lack of funds. surely this has saved my life more times than i can count, in sooo many ways.
-apathy. it sucks but it keeps me from killing myself, or maybe other people too.
-the good ol' telephone......
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dunx:
I'm sorry. Enjoy Portland though, I miss it...I'm going to Philly for the weekend, myself. We'll see how that turns out. Wish me luck. .
Oh, and I was
quite proud of you. Just couldn't comment at the time.
Oh, and I was
quite proud of you. Just couldn't comment at the time.
that was definitely the most glamorous funeral i've ever seen.
i'd expect nothing less, of course.
i'd expect nothing less, of course.
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aaronsrod:
I have always found funerals awkward, I never know what to say to the family and I can't help crying mainly due to the fact that most of the ones I have been too have been close friends, that were to young to die.
I am thinking of you
I am thinking of you
wallace:
aw, sounds like a good finish at least..
last night i drank a bottle of jameson and lost my favourite jacket. why? because i rock, that's why. duncan i know you'll approve of my conduct.
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woodplank4wheels:
you look so great, what are you doing in the WL group?
woodplank4wheels:
ahh ok, fair enough. Nice stomach tattoo.
my friend stevie fischer died in a fire 2 blocks from my house at 3 am on tuesday morning. he was 23; beautiful, an amazing artist and fashion designer. he had the biggest warmest heart i've ever known and the most radiant smile... i read a fucking newspaper article about it this morning.
this is stevie.
so... yesterday morning after school i ran into jeremy...
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this is stevie.
so... yesterday morning after school i ran into jeremy...
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miguelitooooo:
woah, so sorry to hear about your friend. am thinking good thoughts for you and your pals and his family now. shit.
aaronsrod:
thats fucked up mate, sorry to hear this.
that was fun. i'll tell you about it later.
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wallace:
haha, great journal entry!
i'd definitely be down for that - heathers was one of my favorite movies growing up, plus my mom has a croquet set we can borrow if need be
i'd definitely be down for that - heathers was one of my favorite movies growing up, plus my mom has a croquet set we can borrow if need be
venice:
I don't remember. 
That just means I'll have to read it again.
That just means I'll have to read it again.
this is my new bike. lovely, isn't she (despite the terrible pic)? so far i'm still a little scared of her, but wow what a ride!
the only good thing about being single for me right now is that i get to masturbate a lot. sometimes it's cool to always get what you want, whenever you want, you know? not having to worry about anyone...
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miguelitooooo:
nice bike! beware the irish plague...
dunx:
FUCKING A! It's nice to be using my imagination again, too, which I can say with absolutely no ego...might be one of the best in history.
Your new bike is pretty.
Your new bike is pretty.
i definitely have a cold. argh.
this morning i skipped school to sleep more; i needed it. i haven't been able to sleep at all lately, and no it's not just because i live above a rehearsal studio.
on saturday morning when i woke up i found that there was strawberry jam in my bike helmet. i'm intrigued. i knew it was strawberry because of...
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this morning i skipped school to sleep more; i needed it. i haven't been able to sleep at all lately, and no it's not just because i live above a rehearsal studio.
on saturday morning when i woke up i found that there was strawberry jam in my bike helmet. i'm intrigued. i knew it was strawberry because of...
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miguelitooooo:
i had a bug all last week -- hope you feel better asap -- how the fuck does jam get inside a helmet?
denizen:
although, sometimes people just really want you do to something with them because they enjoy your company, not realising the pressure they're placing on you.
dude i would totally hold your hand in a grocery store. and i wouldn't call you "dude", either.
cheers.
dude i would totally hold your hand in a grocery store. and i wouldn't call you "dude", either.
cheers.
sometimes everything just hurts so much...
not just the relatively minor struggles of my own pathetic life, but the pain i see on other people's faces (on the bus, at the store, sipping coffee staring at the sky); the closed-offness of people, the fear and the falsity that distort every single minute of every single fucking day. sometimes i get so tired of trying to...
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not just the relatively minor struggles of my own pathetic life, but the pain i see on other people's faces (on the bus, at the store, sipping coffee staring at the sky); the closed-offness of people, the fear and the falsity that distort every single minute of every single fucking day. sometimes i get so tired of trying to...
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dunx:
Yeah, thanks, dick.
cinemaone:
no way.. hand deliver would be so much cooler.. I only work on Sunday's so that could be a problem.
sorry..
however you would like to do it..
no problem
sorry..
however you would like to do it..
no problem
dear impending thorn in my side:
is it because i'm lonely inside that i can't get people to leave me alone? i don't want a boyfriend (at least not the one who's auditioning for the part). just because we had sex when i was hammered doeesn't mean i want to go on dates or have a relationship or whatever. we can be friends (you're interesting...
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is it because i'm lonely inside that i can't get people to leave me alone? i don't want a boyfriend (at least not the one who's auditioning for the part). just because we had sex when i was hammered doeesn't mean i want to go on dates or have a relationship or whatever. we can be friends (you're interesting...
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tech29:
Just tell the guy it was just a shag thats all i wanted tell him he was great and all but THATS IT other wise your sending mixed messages and he'll think he has a chance . This is kinda your fault for not niping it in the bud so to speak 
dunx:
I don't even have my own place...but if you're down to get around that little inconvenience, sure!
Texas is nice.
Texas is nice.
this weekend's activities included:
- fooding with mum - yummm. i heart zuni cafe.
- buying beautiful stuff with mum (well she bought the stuff, i just got to have it) - yay. i like stuff.
- actually talking with mum beyond the surface level - a rare occurrence but made me really happy.
- getting baked and watching romper stomper (instead of going to...
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- fooding with mum - yummm. i heart zuni cafe.
- buying beautiful stuff with mum (well she bought the stuff, i just got to have it) - yay. i like stuff.
- actually talking with mum beyond the surface level - a rare occurrence but made me really happy.
- getting baked and watching romper stomper (instead of going to...
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aaronsrod:
I love romper stomper, Jacqueline McKenzie is one of my favorite actors.
Check her out in the Ben Elton movie 'Stark'
I liked your entry
Check her out in the Ben Elton movie 'Stark'
I liked your entry
lonely.
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synfull:
hi soph. my profile selected you as a match, which i have little faith in due to the other people it selected for me, but i thought you looked cute and interesting to talk to, so...hi.
brocklee:
DONT BE .. 
yes to the trade, but after halloween!!!
and no to broken hearts!