Aloha all... lets see if I can come up with 10 things.
1. Clarification of my last post.
2. How much I hate the military.
3. Being broke.
4. School.
5. Things to look forward to.
6. My camera.
7. My bro and sis.
8. New diet.
9. My old shrink.
10. Two wheels.
1. The last posting, about leaving behind, has to deal with my young little brother, who is in some ways at this point much older than me. Let me explain. We, and me more than the rest, have had extremely fucked up lives. Unspeakable shit has taken place. This, to me, is ok. I have learned to deal with it over the past 24 years. My brother, is only 17, and not having such an easy time. He has a kid due on 15 Sept, which is something I could not fathom. Anyway, two weeks ago he entered himself in rehab. Various drugs, alcohol, etc. I feel in so many ways I have let him down. We have a big age difference, and a lifestyle difference, Me, the (soldout) punk kid and him, the thuggish wannabe kid who is thankfully breaking away from that. Anyhow, he and my sister both, I feel like I haven't been there enough for them. I am the only one of the three who got out of the situations, who is *trying* to do better with his life... the other two, I fear for. I wish I could do more to help. God, Allah, whoever as my witness, if I get out of the military and get a good paying job, I promise I will help pay for both of them to go to college.
2. I hate the military, a lot. They are slowly, albeit they are now putting some kind of rush on it, trying to get me out. Fuck it, as long as I get an Honorable discharge, I am happy. Fuck these people.
3. I am broke, and my upcoming plans will only further that. Which is ok, live for now right. Goddammit I went to Iraq, if I want to go to Disney in October, fucking try and stop me. But, when I get back, I HAVE to get a job on Fri night/Sat/Sun. I have to be prepared for what I said in #2. Anyone know of a gig I could pick up? Hell I would start now if the job wouldnt complain about me wanting 2 weeks off in October. Suggestions?
4. School, yup... 4 nights a week this fall, which sucks, but I need to be on it. Working all fucking day, going to school, and then getting a part time job come mid october is going to suck... but oh well.
5. Things to look forward to...
Idlewild show on Sept 11.
Henry Rollins in Baltimore on Sept 16th
Jello Biafras thing on Sept 24th
Pearl Jam and Sleater-Kinney in Philly on Oct 3rd.
Going home mid October (Memphis)
Henry Rollins in New Orleans with friends from home on Oct 8th.
Going to Disney OCt 14-20th.
Social D Oct 25th
So those are good things.... also making me more broke. At least I already have tickets for all the stuff mentioned, except the Idlewild thing.
6. My camera... hasn't been used much lately... that sucks.
7. Like I said, I haven't much in common with them, but I love them. My bro is 17, sis is 22. She has a kid who is 3 who I adore. He is amazing. She is also pregnant again, my mom will be a Granny x3.
8. Diet... I am going to try and cut back on meat a lot, I eat chicken every day and I know the cholesterol is horrible for me. So more tofu and veggies.
9. My old shrink. I first saw Dr. Tom in 1990 when I was 9 years old. I saw him off and on, in inpatient (I spent a lot of time in hospitals as a kid) and outpatient capacity till I was 14. When I was 17 or so my little brother started seeing him. Then, when I was 21 I saw him again, because I was hoping he could help me remember shit, or at least fill in the blanks, of parts of my life that are fuzzy. He did a great job, he saw me for free when I was 21, and he helped me a lot. Great guy. Anyway, at my brothers rehab thing, he saw Dr Tom, so that makes 15 years that Dr Tom has been in my families life. I got his number, and will give him a call tomorrow, just to say thanks.
10. I got a bike, its fun. I have been riding two routes. Eisenhower and Telegraph up to Reagan Airport, or E&T to Duke and Van Dorn... I feel beat afterwards, but it is nice.
Thanks to all for kind words after the last post, and I promise I won't be a stranger from now on.
1. Clarification of my last post.
2. How much I hate the military.
3. Being broke.
4. School.
5. Things to look forward to.
6. My camera.
7. My bro and sis.
8. New diet.
9. My old shrink.
10. Two wheels.
1. The last posting, about leaving behind, has to deal with my young little brother, who is in some ways at this point much older than me. Let me explain. We, and me more than the rest, have had extremely fucked up lives. Unspeakable shit has taken place. This, to me, is ok. I have learned to deal with it over the past 24 years. My brother, is only 17, and not having such an easy time. He has a kid due on 15 Sept, which is something I could not fathom. Anyway, two weeks ago he entered himself in rehab. Various drugs, alcohol, etc. I feel in so many ways I have let him down. We have a big age difference, and a lifestyle difference, Me, the (soldout) punk kid and him, the thuggish wannabe kid who is thankfully breaking away from that. Anyhow, he and my sister both, I feel like I haven't been there enough for them. I am the only one of the three who got out of the situations, who is *trying* to do better with his life... the other two, I fear for. I wish I could do more to help. God, Allah, whoever as my witness, if I get out of the military and get a good paying job, I promise I will help pay for both of them to go to college.
2. I hate the military, a lot. They are slowly, albeit they are now putting some kind of rush on it, trying to get me out. Fuck it, as long as I get an Honorable discharge, I am happy. Fuck these people.
3. I am broke, and my upcoming plans will only further that. Which is ok, live for now right. Goddammit I went to Iraq, if I want to go to Disney in October, fucking try and stop me. But, when I get back, I HAVE to get a job on Fri night/Sat/Sun. I have to be prepared for what I said in #2. Anyone know of a gig I could pick up? Hell I would start now if the job wouldnt complain about me wanting 2 weeks off in October. Suggestions?
4. School, yup... 4 nights a week this fall, which sucks, but I need to be on it. Working all fucking day, going to school, and then getting a part time job come mid october is going to suck... but oh well.
5. Things to look forward to...
Idlewild show on Sept 11.
Henry Rollins in Baltimore on Sept 16th
Jello Biafras thing on Sept 24th
Pearl Jam and Sleater-Kinney in Philly on Oct 3rd.
Going home mid October (Memphis)
Henry Rollins in New Orleans with friends from home on Oct 8th.
Going to Disney OCt 14-20th.
Social D Oct 25th
So those are good things.... also making me more broke. At least I already have tickets for all the stuff mentioned, except the Idlewild thing.
6. My camera... hasn't been used much lately... that sucks.
7. Like I said, I haven't much in common with them, but I love them. My bro is 17, sis is 22. She has a kid who is 3 who I adore. He is amazing. She is also pregnant again, my mom will be a Granny x3.
8. Diet... I am going to try and cut back on meat a lot, I eat chicken every day and I know the cholesterol is horrible for me. So more tofu and veggies.
9. My old shrink. I first saw Dr. Tom in 1990 when I was 9 years old. I saw him off and on, in inpatient (I spent a lot of time in hospitals as a kid) and outpatient capacity till I was 14. When I was 17 or so my little brother started seeing him. Then, when I was 21 I saw him again, because I was hoping he could help me remember shit, or at least fill in the blanks, of parts of my life that are fuzzy. He did a great job, he saw me for free when I was 21, and he helped me a lot. Great guy. Anyway, at my brothers rehab thing, he saw Dr Tom, so that makes 15 years that Dr Tom has been in my families life. I got his number, and will give him a call tomorrow, just to say thanks.
10. I got a bike, its fun. I have been riding two routes. Eisenhower and Telegraph up to Reagan Airport, or E&T to Duke and Van Dorn... I feel beat afterwards, but it is nice.
Thanks to all for kind words after the last post, and I promise I won't be a stranger from now on.
Life can suck in general! But atleast you have some really cool things coming up for you. Do you think Henry will remember you? Maybe he'll ask you to sing a duet on stage with him. I can see it now.........
Take care