Truth be told : life sucks for me right now. I had a wonderful little nervous breakdown yesterday. Heard of Murphy's Law ? yeah. To top off the day from hell one of the larger diamonds from my grandmother's ring( you know the one she left me when she died, the one i like to enjoy on my finger everyday) popped out god knows where - and an hour of looking still never unearthed it. Oh and of course my father calls me shallow for crying over it. he says there are more important things going on in the world and an activist like myself should know better. so he's right. Regardless of his correctness or not, it's not what you want to hear when you've just lost a fucking diamond. A god damned motherfucking diamond !!!!!!! At least i didn't have the gory nightmares i've been having for the past week. So you ask what's going on to make me have a nervous breakdown ? well here you go ! :
1. They cut our hours at work sooooo severly that i'm making around $103 for every two weeks. And of course, im in debt and have credit bills to pay. you know exactly how i feel. it happens to everyone. well NOT everyone.
2. My family and i are getting kicked out of our house, because without warning the family we rent from wants to sell it to another family that made a high offer. I'm really not into motel living right now so . . . . i need a god shot for us to get a home. and hopefully one that's not complete shit.
3. I started a diet. When i stopped drinking and using i started eating, and my fat has been my protection from the world. From relationships. From immature baby boys like i've had, and others like that one that was simply the antichrist of boyfriends for me to this present moment. I feel exposed.
4. My best two friends terence and meg seem to have this success perdestined to them. they seemingly gtlide through this accademic system because they have a plan. I HAVE NO PLAN. and i'll be 22 in feb., i just keep getting older( and wiser, just not school book wiser) my parents say that time is an illusion and just because my life has had chemical abuse setbacks does not mean i won't devlope a plan. they're right but the world of success is whipping around me and i can't even begin to touch it.
5. PMS
6. Drowning i a deep sea of responsibility.
7. Nightmares. For me this is uncommon.very. Horrible, graphic nightmares.
8. I think one of my labia rings is too shallow and have to get it re-done oh so so so much joy at that.
9. i could go on but won't........
1. They cut our hours at work sooooo severly that i'm making around $103 for every two weeks. And of course, im in debt and have credit bills to pay. you know exactly how i feel. it happens to everyone. well NOT everyone.
2. My family and i are getting kicked out of our house, because without warning the family we rent from wants to sell it to another family that made a high offer. I'm really not into motel living right now so . . . . i need a god shot for us to get a home. and hopefully one that's not complete shit.
3. I started a diet. When i stopped drinking and using i started eating, and my fat has been my protection from the world. From relationships. From immature baby boys like i've had, and others like that one that was simply the antichrist of boyfriends for me to this present moment. I feel exposed.
4. My best two friends terence and meg seem to have this success perdestined to them. they seemingly gtlide through this accademic system because they have a plan. I HAVE NO PLAN. and i'll be 22 in feb., i just keep getting older( and wiser, just not school book wiser) my parents say that time is an illusion and just because my life has had chemical abuse setbacks does not mean i won't devlope a plan. they're right but the world of success is whipping around me and i can't even begin to touch it.
5. PMS
6. Drowning i a deep sea of responsibility.
7. Nightmares. For me this is uncommon.very. Horrible, graphic nightmares.
8. I think one of my labia rings is too shallow and have to get it re-done oh so so so much joy at that.
9. i could go on but won't........
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can you email to my offsite addy?
my voice is back.. i hope the faries in the garden magically give you back yours!
diets are always good
what were you thinking about getting as a tat?