somuchrain

I am in a terrible mood and so I am going to fill this journal, which is the most insignificant thing I can think of, with all the bile I'd rather launch at specific targets. It's a bit like a death threat to someone I've never met, or an anonymous love letter.

I hate the pompous use of foreign languages. I hate when people say...
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Erased for tedium's sake.

There are so many reasons people go from place to place. Vacations are such a lovely thing: the ability to get away from everything that troubles and focus on pleasure for a time. Funerals cause travel also. I know two friends who, no matter where they are, or what they are doing, spend September 11th together after waking up next to one another that morning....
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I'll sleep when I've a job, an apartment and Sweden's won the world cup

So I've been awake for most of the last two weeks. It's odd, really. I'm never particularly good at sleeping, but now I simply cannot sleep before seven or eight in the morning, and then only until the Brazilian woman at the halfway house next door yells or cheers at the...
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yo what yo bitches
i am miserable.

Love, and I mean real love, not the trite and glittering pap that most of us spend so much time convincing ourselves of, comes in waves, like wind thrown through trees, down, into a valley, or armies moving on a town.

There is, first, the crush, with its unbelievable buoyancy and weight, the teetering uncertainty. A crush is like a game in an imaginary fort:...
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I went to work today after skipping since Monday. I just couldn't be bothered. I mean, why? It's $6 an hour. I told my boss today, in the five minuets I was there, that my mother had been in a car crash and had broken her legs. He knew my phone had been cut off since last weekend, which, unlike everything else, isn't a lie....
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"We could start getting up early, you know like old couples, and have tea and toast, the occasional guilt-filled cup of milky coffee. We could watch the afterbirth of sunrise together."

Echo helped Zeus in a sexual conquest. Zeus' wife Hera found out and was, reasonably, angry with both Zeus and Echo. Hera cursed Echo to speak only the words she heard - constantly parroting...
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Courageously ... with grace.

A continuing obsession with Miranda July. It's genius but almost my fucking age, which leads to resentment (ooo! how catty!) ... that whole 'not having done enough' thing. Jesus Christ, Nietzsche (ba-zing! name drop!) was right!

Too much of random people vomiting. It's like high school .... "objectively speaking... would you think 'that guy looks OK, he looks like a guy...
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Someone once said, "There is no such thing as love, only proofs of love."

I've seen myself doing something, recently, which is rather fucked. I know I've done it longer. I have a very hard time believing in, or trusting, I suppose, love, unless it's attended to by sadness. Happy relationships just seem unbelievable, in a way. I mean, they're what the best works are...
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