somuchrain

it's a pretty maudlin week. everyone who's been close, our whole group, is finally breaking apart in a significant way. brian left monday and the house has just been big and empty with the dogs and theis and i wandering around wondering what to do. he and lis are off making a trip to drop his crap off at his parent's house now. we'd planned to burn a bunch of our furnature, listen to guns and roses and drink heavily to distract ourselves from being sort of sad. they'll either return with loads more energy than me, or in a giant fight (there's really no in between). now i'm sitting here making a sort-of-sad mix cd. crizzap