somuchrain

well i'm uhh, living in jersey and working at quiznos.
sorta dull. my presentations at RAT went really well. i might start helping edit/read Autonomedia books which'd be rad. nothing else is really going on. i'm flat bloke and my rent's way high.

so i'm living in jersey and working on my stuff for RAT this weekend.
it's a cool place and nice to live on my own. nadja is happy. i might have a job at a bookstore and might have one at a healthfood store and might have one at a cafe. i need all of them 'cos my rent's so damn high but ehh. so...
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Have you ever noticed how frogs peep in the spring and croak in the fall?

It's almost fully fall here now, in not-quite-central Massachusetts. I'd not ever realized how much Vermont had really changed me in relation to seasons. Of course there are four obvious seasons in Boston and New York (where I've spent most of my time) but in nowhere as clear and present...
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So I'm almost certain that I've got an apartment in Jersey, about half an hour from Penn Station. It's in the building that my friends Ilana and Joe live, which is great, and it will be a good half-step for Nadja to get used to cities. So, it's sort of great, and a good step towards finding a motherfucking place in the city (which, is...
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I've been in the city this last week looking for an apartment. Utterly no luck at all. Not entirely sure what I'm doing wrong, but any rate. I got to see a lot of people whom I love and hadn't seen in ages, and had a lot of fun. I miss Nadja though and can't wait to go get him from the boarding place where...
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I'm not so good this week. I might have a place to live in the city, but it all depends on my ability to get to the city to pay for it. I can't get there until Monday at the earliest and then, for reasons all too stupid, wouldn't have any way to get back to my father's house until the following Thursday night or...
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So I was talking to my mother tonight and found out that Padraic O Conaire was actually a family friend 'back in the day.' Apparently he and my great grandfather were in the The Gaelic League together in Galway. He had, according to word, a tab with my great grandfather for whiskey. My great grandfather had some money 'cos he had a masters (quite something...
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So I've got nowhere to live. This is starting to drive me insane. I can't possibly stay in my dad's house on the basement floor much longer. To begin with the concrete dust in the air is starting to make me sick. I might have to just find some hotel in the city that allows dogs and stay there until I can actually find a...
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Well I've spent the last 24 hours finishing books and starting new ones. I read Padraic o Connaire's "Exile" and John Banville's "The Untouchable". Both were brilliant. Banville, despite everything I'd read about his 'high-modernist' Gothic style was beautiful writing and the story was touching, hilarious, and deeply thoughtful. He touches on aspects of identity through metaphors of migration and espionage that are kind of...
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I think I'm a bit too Old Testament after all. You see, I'm a fanatical wisher-on-stars (shooting or otherwise), and in fact, I wish on just about anything opportune or unexpected. I've got this fear, though, that whatever power there is that grants my wishes will be a prissy, semantic 'teacher of lessons' that, if my wishes aren't complete or coherent enough, if there's the...
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There's a feeling of quiet unease thrown over everything now. I'd love to talk about it with him, but it would end in embarrassed silence or more tears. I think I'll take my father's methods and pretend nothing every happened. Back to the cheerful stage Charlie making rude jokes and tickling the children. God, I just made myself sound like a perverted uncle or something....
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