somuchrain

Well disaster more-or-less put off. It was just a really huge fight with my dad, my dad's fiance, and my dad's best friend. Trite sounding now, but I've never actually been in a fight with my dad so it was pretty fucking shattering. He's always been sort of a friend and not a father. I don't think he's ever forbidden me from doing anything and...
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tonight was very bad. i can't really talk about how without going into very very great detail. it was just very bad. i might not be back in a while, but i might be back in the morning. i'm not quite sure. tonight was just very bad.

dude, i am totally sitting in the basement listening to Nelly and reading Fancy French Philosophy (tm). I just subconsciously started writing "give me two perrs, i need two perrs" in the middle of a citation.
crazy times in the middle of nowhere.

(god, nelly really sucks, but this song is so stupid it's fun as all hell, i mean, fucking hell, it's a sort...
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I got a lot of work done on one of my RAT talks today - the talk on play. I've been reading all this stuff, Huizinga and the Situationists, Lefebvre, for weeks to be versed on the concept, and I've not had a thing to say other than reciting the things others have said - it's like, I could only say bullshit, and tonight I...
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The drive home the other night was sad, and I was a little drunk, and my books kept threatening to leap from their boxes in the trailer and fly up over the highway. There's got to be something symbolic in that, eh? So the first day I hung out with my father and that was lovely. I got on alright with Geraldine, the father's live-in-though-not-married-and-with-children-together-person...
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Last night I wondered, for only a second, whether I was making a mistake leaving Vermont. It's certainly not that I've been very happy while here. But I've also been unimaginably happy. This place made me who I am, as clich as that does sound. There are specific lineages of specific parts of me that I can think back to the events, conversations, arguments, and...
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it's a pretty maudlin week. everyone who's been close, our whole group, is finally breaking apart in a significant way. brian left monday and the house has just been big and empty with the dogs and theis and i wandering around wondering what to do. he and lis are off making a trip to drop his crap off at his parent's house now. we'd planned...
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I'm really struggling with my thesis lately. I'm having a lot of trouble on the third chapter, which is just sort of a framework of how a view of 'revolutionary' politics not held back by Marxism could work. I'm really struggling with Deleuze and Guittari. It feels a lot like the first time I read Hegel - there's a whole new, and insufficiently defined, language....
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Things feel pretty good lately. I think that's largely due to the fact that I'm packing and ready to move (where to, I don't know, and that seems almost inconsequential.). Asa, from Montreal, and a former flatmate, is visiting for a few days. It's lovely to have him around, he's so different from my usual friends, and certainly from me. Theis, my bestist friend here,...
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the newspaper has swined me!

http://www.sevendaysvt.com/calendar/tuesday_12/

i am in talks! i am famous! chuzzah 7 days. crap. (not that it doesn't feel sort of cool)

my talk is tomorrow and apparently black sheep now deserves notes in the newspaper and now i am a "self described 'anarchist'" - sorry load of crap. hardly. and whatnot. also - today is a day of celebration because my...
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talk quickly approaching - work lots, arhg. old flatmate coming to visit for the next few weeks and i can't wait. this, however, is the crappiest week for guests ever. talk tuesday and paper of talk due friday. fuckcrapshit.
plans for new york are solidifying a tad. now i just need to find a sublet for five months in the city. fuckcrapshit.