sometimesaway

Yesterday

I pedaled my bike home from work a bit earlier than I had anticipated yesterday. I love the freedom of the bike. Its so wonderful that when something catches my eye, I can turn to go up to it without the labor and time of parking. The car zots your head, closes your mind. Its a part of the loosening fabric of things. The...
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I watched the sun set. I've always loved sunsets.


I'm thinking about this one particular evening. The sun setting behind Chaple Hill Mall, as my mother walked me into the overhanging arches and into the depths of that beast. I'm remembering being in the mall's pet store. The dogs were yelping and barking out for salvation. The rats flushed around their cages, just olympic athletes...
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Yesterday a teacher told a group of African American students that they should, "act more asian and pretend they're good at school stuff"

She's the worst teacher I've ever worked with. Beyond the racist comments she has no skill in working with the children whatsoever. Her room is a zoo, and then she complains about the kids not getting work done. She has no control...
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things are going well


nuff' said

There's a little "community" room in the basement of my apartment complex. They have a cable hook-up, and I'm here with my laptop. I've missed two days of work in a row for an illness that is imagined itself into reality. Have you ever faked being sick, and found yourself sick from it? I feel useless and silly right now. I will have to make...
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my friend from long lost ohio is in town.

she just moved here, and is staying at my place

so, ya know...sex again. nice.


she's a sweet and beautiful girl, but when i look at her i can see the struggle with depression she is having. i wish i could be there more for her, but she has stated clearly that she wants to spend...
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bend thing

It's 2:23pm on a Sunday afternoon and all kinds of things are all about today. I'm listening to a playlist I made for a woman at work who confessed her large crush on me a day after giving it to her.

I remember how short a time I took to make it, how little work I put into things nowadays, how futile and...
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decided to keep the account for right now. don't want to have to bother re-establishing all my preferences after a month off. shit, it's only a few bucks a month.


i was sitting here, tired and a little high on coffee after a long work day of not much exciting going on. i was sitting, and for some reason this old porno flashed in my...
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i'm not going to have any internet access for the next month or so...



im signed up to let my SG account die in a few days. i think i should do this..because i wont be able to be on SG at home anyway.

then again, maybe i could just use the wi-fi at coffee shops and whatnot, and get online once in awhile.

i...
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this use to mean something as grand as "death" to me.
now it just means "youth" and why not to mourn it...etc.


i dunno


beautiful as all hell still and always
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simple pleasures
all is well
and if i should fall alone
don't be sad
for everything has a time
and i too shall leave
and all fantasies
shall one day die
to give...
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