somethin1919

Anyway I was reading devastator's journal earlier and I had this to say.....

"I always think it's funny that people with boyfriends/girlfriends talk about how they haven't gotten laid in two or three days like it's a long time or something....I haven't gotten laid in maybe six to eight weeks....and that isn't even really that bad by my standards....."

It's just really weird....maybe some people have always been getting laid on a regular basis or something or they just learned to take for granted how good it can be....I have never in my life gotten laid on what I would call a regular basis....I know that I am kind of unusual in that sense but I think the whole thing is funny.....

I really wish I could get laid more often and I would even be willing to make some sacrifices to do so, but unless there is something I have just not figured out yet it will probably never happen. It's kind of depressing to think about it in a way, but I guess some people are just destined to be always mildly unhappy or more. Right now I am probably about the happiest I have been on a sustained basis in my entire life, and I still would consider it more of a neutral....and in a lot of ways even though things are going ok, they also really suck in a lot of ways too. I guess I will probably have to take antidepressants for the rest of my life....I am pretty afraid to go off them completely knowing how I used to be, but I have successfully stopped taking effexor and I think I am better off without it, because the side effects were messing me up.

That's all I have to say. bye