I have to confess, I've been away for a bit. I lost one of my best friends and it was hard. Why he had passed means absolutely nothing to me, because I know he's not suffering and he's better where he is now than he is here. It hurts because I saw that fool every single day and now I just don't anymore. We had such big plans, we were gonna change the world, the three of us. Caitlin, Adam and Jacob. Nothing else mattered because we had each other and we were going to make everything better for everyone. I miss the memories we shared together and I'm going to miss him in every moment that he's not there in the new ones. But it's okay. It really is. We can sense his energy everyday, and we ourselves become more and more like Jacob everyday. The day he passed, we didn't find out until later that night. But surprisingly enough, it was a good day for us. That day felt refreshing, we felt great, we were happy, the energy between us was stronger and it felt as though we had slipped into a new timeline. And all day we were thinking of Jacob and all the cool things we found or saw that we could show Jacob later, or that the spot we found in the desert was beautiful and we should take Jacob here with us next time we go..... We didn't understand until after we heard the news, that the energy we felt was Jacob and the new timeline we slipped into, was one without Jacob in it. But we do now, and that's why it's okay for me to be okay. I've learned that I have to care for myself as much as I do others. Duh. But I can't wait for the day that we get to meet Jacob again, that same energy in our friend, finding us again.
These have been my constant thoughts, and this is me releasing it from my mind. I'm sorry for this long post, but that's where I've been. Remembering my dear friend and spending time telling myself that it's okay. Thank you ♥
♥ Love you buddy! ♥
