someozone

so its been a long-ass time since I've sat down and felt the need to write a blog, and I don't particularly feel the need, at the moment, to write one now, but this this is the first time in about a week that I've been home for more than an hour and not been asleep.

So many of friends are already leaving to go back home, start jobs, find jobs, cry, start school again, /prepare for school again, or just plain move. Frankly I don't know how I feel about it ... I'm not very comfortable in the heat that we've had lately, and when its hot outside I usually don't feel like hanging out with people ... so its been a mixed bag. I want, more than just about anything, to hang out as much as possible, but I end up never having a great time because I'm so fucking self-conscious and uncomfortable. I really need to just chill out.

On the flip side, I've really loved being back in lab so much. I get so much done, and its so intellectually fulfilling. I really like spending time with eric there. Its shocking how close we are.

I'm incredible depressed about leaving all these people. I should stop thinking about this.

Cicadas = overdone

Bush = sigh

Bush being chased by Cicadas = funny

My professor introduced me Elastica today ... funny when professors introduce you to things like that. He also asked if I was gay. After being in the lab for 2.5 years, its incredible that this hasn't come up before. Did I all of a sudden come up on his gaydar? Has he been wondering for years, giving me dating advice, etc, but never bringing it up? Hasn't he asked eric or someone else in the lab? So fucking weird. Does he forget that I've introduced him to girlfriends? Weirdo

I realized I still have this problem where I talk to religious people as if I have to hint that "I'm ok with the fact that you are religious." I never bring up my agnosticism. Its a strange strange thing. A friend of mine just started talk about how he was basically an agnostic, and I kept asking how he was questioning his beliefs, rather than have a discussion with him about it. I suck ... that would've been a great conversation ... I'm so strange.

I need to write thank you letters to everyone for graduation. I'm so lucky have a family and friends that are so generous and kind. Its going to be a crazy time when I go home for a few months.

Living with my parents will be strange, though luckily they both work.

something that annoys me = when people use the word "emo" instead of "emotional" ... that's so lame.