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I received She Comes First in the mail a few days ago. and I've been reading it every spare second that I have ... Its quite enlightening, and I felt I had a higher than average grasp on female sexual anatomy. I'm just yearning to give it a try.

each day seems like half a week already. Day 4 and I feel like I've been in school for a month. This is going to be a long quarter.

school is WAY harder. We can barely keep up with the material, though its 1000x more interesting now.

A lot of people are on edge all the time. Others are really emotional. I'm ok, for some...
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Brittany's last night here, she had her car broken into and her suitcase stolen. They shattered her rear passenger window. I feel like shit right now.

the first day of this quarter was both really scary and awesome. I saw a inflating and deflating lung completely dissected away from the body. It was like magic.

-jon

Well ... I haven't updated or really even been on the site for my entire break. Little has happened, though I did pick up a girl at a bar this weekend. My first one night stand, how cute. also rather vacuous and unfulfilling.

My super-Republican grandfather is suddenly a Democrat. shocking.

B, an old high school friend, is visiting me right now, which has been...
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exam tomorrow and I am not very prepared ...

i wondering I would think a tattooed snowwomen is attractive.

all of the mystery of attraction doesn't seem to apply to me:
no Y chromosome + tattoos + piercings = hot

If you are thinking: "Well, i have tattoos and/or piercing, does he thi..." yes

random fact: i have had a goatee for six years.

watched blade iii yesterday ... it totally lived up to my expectations

not getting enough done for school and i'm getting nervous

i like country music goddamn it ... at least the really old stuff

notebook of moving and all the procrastination

morning: fuck around online; get depressed
noon-1pm: oriental ramen with egg (gross) + microwave burrito
1-2pm: clean desk
-find stack of papers that were put there the day i moved in
- finally filed this papers
-removed 5 diet coke cans
2-3pm: organized all material from first quarter. Would you believe I've memorized an entire foot of lecture...
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i noticed today that i trivialized someone else's stress and hardship because they weren't in med school.

Nico - These Days

Do you think that apathy and nihilism about your life can be justified at times?

I'm seeing Kinsey today ... i hear its not great, but whatever.

Kinsey was not great ... it was ok

moving tomorrow ... closer to campus ...
decided the...
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things I ate this week:

shark fin
jelly fish
frog mucous
cow intestine
a supreme pizza

my uncle can speak six languages ...
english
bahasa
javanese
japanese
mandarian
cantonese

a little less than a happy high
a little less than a suicide

i feel loved
my last final is in two days
i have twenty lectures worth of material to cover in that time
i only went to three of them

i am, across may levels of meaning, overwhelmed


GOALS:
assume a role of self-sufficiency
stop using my status as a first year as a crutch
remember to compose myself

The litebrite's now black and white
Cause you took apart a picture that wasn't right
Pitch burning on a shining sheet
The only maker that you'd want to meet
The dying man in a living room
Who's shadow paces the floor
He'll take you out any open door
This is not my life
It's just a fond farewell to a friend
It's not what I'm...
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i'm comfortable apart
its all written on my chart
and I take whats given me
most cooperatively
i do what people say
and lie in bed all day
absolutely horrified
i'm hope you satisfied
isolation pushes past
self-hatred, guilt and shame
to a place where suffering is just a game
but everyone's who scared of this place is staying away
you live in a house...
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