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drunker than I should, but less drunk than $65 should make me.

I am smoking my first cuban cigar in a minute.

alcohol really does make you forget your sadness and problems... even those as vague, insignificant, and unfounded as mine are ...

some orf them aren't though.

i feel bad for everyone who has broken up recently ... but feel equally jealous of everyone...
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"i am not young enough to know everything." - oscar wilde

"love is the difficult realization that something other than oneself is real." - iris murdoch

i am anxious again ... I can't walk outside without feeling overcome ...

damn me and my fucked up neurobiology/psychology paradox! I want to break stuff.

too bad a don't believe in a soul ... then i could at...
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Dude ... i'm like totally writing a journal entry.

I find it strange that medical schools find it appropriate to ask for a two page autobiography. Perhaps this seems a bit self-absorbed.... *who do you think you are, mr smartie pants, to think that YOUR glorious life is too magnificent to be condensed to two pages* ...

I would first ask everyone try to meaningfully...
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America Splendor is a fantastic movie is anyone is interested.

I've come to realize that I really want someone to be physically close with. I find myself wanting to kiss people, and I'm not really very attracted to them. This is obscenely ridiculous and doesn't make me happy. I'm not really looking for a fling ... just an intimate friendship ... sex can be part...
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I'm becoming EXTREMELY mildly concerned at my OVERABUNDANT lack of punchy irony lately. Things have become much too serious within the last few weeks.

*insert comment about the purpose of a blog (entertainment v. introspection and personality).*

I need to fuck.

I need to take a shower.

in related news... i love my new orchid.

orchids are like aliens, just really beautiful ones.
someone buy...
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ugh ... send me some love ...

up at 5am to start an experiment at 5:30 ... classes and meetings until 9pm.

drink at 12am though

grande latte, i love you. - j

holy fuck did shit hit the fan this week.

the old president of a student group I work with dropped the ball and didn't submit a budget proposal, so we have no money, and there is a major shortage of funds left, which means our group may become defunct after tons of work this summer. I've been scrambling since I got this news and its...
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hmm... what a beautiful day today.

i'm definitely not looking forward to going to classes tomorrow.

the moon was so bright tonight, and my walk was quite rewarding.

now for some self-control.

-j

Last night was a lot of fun, and their house was fucking incredible. I should have stayed longer, kept talking with everyone, at least i got 10hrs of sleep.

we'll see how life is in the future. Sometimes I think that the girls I pursue wouldn't work out in the end anyway. its frustrating when the people around you seem to have it so much...
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Busy days have come upon me.

we got a ton of people interested in HURJ, a publication group I work with, and now setting up our meeting this weekend has turned into a mild crisis.

classes are relatively boring, except for my philosophy class but it looks like I might get dropped from the classes because its over registered... suck

apps are majorly kicking my...
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I got back from cali yesterday. American Rags has the fucking hotest clothes ever. Alas, baltimore has little to offer in its stead.

planning much fun and drinking this week before classes start on thursday. I would kill for a back massage at the moment.

I bought the book for Human Sexuality and Variation (surprisingly only one)... It was fun to walk around charles village...
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trip to new york may end up becoming trip to NJ to drunk in a hotel. sounds like a good time to me. Here's hoping I at least get to visit in the MOMA.

MUST FINISH YALE APPLICATION... -j