Growl. He does as he stared into the bleak, parched sky made of desolation and angst.....
You know. I think I just might have to leave. It's not worth the money. It's not worth the fame. I have such a deep anchor to this place that it makes this nonchalant soul care about something unnatural.
I love my job... but if it keeps me here there's no amount of compensation they could offer that could possibly lift this billion ton odium. I have to leave. I must leave. I genuinely - HATE - LIFE - while I'm here.
What does one do? There are 8 people depending on me here. Nobody in the city is qualified to do my job. Nobody anywhere could pick up where i leave....I can't fuck over my friends. I can't live here. I can't find the reasonable comprimise.
And now I'm writing this on an online journal. I just might have reached my life's nadir. This might be the end!
I'll be the first SuicideBoy ....................................................................................
(exhale)
You know. I think I just might have to leave. It's not worth the money. It's not worth the fame. I have such a deep anchor to this place that it makes this nonchalant soul care about something unnatural.
I love my job... but if it keeps me here there's no amount of compensation they could offer that could possibly lift this billion ton odium. I have to leave. I must leave. I genuinely - HATE - LIFE - while I'm here.
What does one do? There are 8 people depending on me here. Nobody in the city is qualified to do my job. Nobody anywhere could pick up where i leave....I can't fuck over my friends. I can't live here. I can't find the reasonable comprimise.
And now I'm writing this on an online journal. I just might have reached my life's nadir. This might be the end!
I'll be the first SuicideBoy ....................................................................................
(exhale)
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I gots no fuckin' clue what you speak of above...
But the bottom line is you gots to do whats best for you mah man...
Sometimes you gots to burns da bridges... and sometimes you might be lucky enough to not have to.
But if you feel that this shit is keeping you down or that it will keep you down on a permanent basis...
Than all you can really say... is
Fuck It...
Do what you got to do and try to stay objective...
(if they are your "friends" and not merely your co-workers or associates or whatever the case may be, then they will understand and hopefully in the end respect you for it).
Rock on chief.
the company i was at was ... well, hell on earth ... by the end i was totally burned and made up my mind that something hadd to be done ... and i also felt bad about getting a replacement , subjecting some other poor soul to the misery i was trying to escape ... but ultimately i decided to do both the survivalist thing (and professional, thing too).
its just hard to see past the groove you're in most of the time ... but thanfully the worlds big enough to allow for new beginnings, or at least that's been my experience so far ...