solisis

Logical deduction surpassed by the unrelenting curiosity brewed after a course of an untimely panic attack surfaced by an uncertain tactical maneuver of a friend in a land not too far away the summary of the past week. I have a habit of fabricating realities in my head without any factual information to form these assumptions in an educated manor. The resuts are Kai convincing Kai of many things that are in no way true. Kai also realizes what he does then types them into online journals that nobody will ever care to review. So before Kai goes into full on self destruct mode he will try to enforce a plan of action recently discussed with a Mr. Trent Ducati.

And so it begins:
Patterns. We all go through a set of patterns. Day by day. Same job. Same music. Same relationship. Same behavior. Same clothes. Same this same that same blah blah freakin blah. You get it, Im certain. The idea is to never accept that today is the first day of the rest of your life. The idea is to forget that underlying desire to settle down. The idea is to never say If all else fails, Ive at least got the car thing settled. The idea is to break the mold. OK then. Ive made myself clear (abundantly clear if one agrees that clarity can be quantified). The consideration one accepts with the pattern theory is that change is about the only reliable detail in life. No matter what you do or dont do there will always be something changing. So change in itself is not considered a pattern. Why do I bring it up? Because I have to.
When one accepts their own mistakes as a learning process they hurt no less than the fool who dwells in their own misery. The difference is the defense that rises on a count of this experience. The wise will consider the situation. The fool might run from it. Both make sense. Look at a situation and see the benefits of it or avoid catastrophy by eliminating the source. The constant between the two is a simple formulaic pattern to decision. Despite the different approach, they both consider what they did before and applied it to now. What the pattern theory is suggesting is that you do something youve NEVER done before. Toss a brick in the process and see what happens. Whats the worst that can happen. Dont answer that, actually.
See, I dont know what I do to make things fall apart, but they always do. My hypothesis is that if I take a violently different approach to the given scenario I have a better chance of avoiding disaster. So to say that if I break the pattern of approach, the pattern of results might break along with it.