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solisis

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Wednesday Oct 02, 2002

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My hands, they speak. I read their voice. Their thoughts, unbelievable. Through sick, glamour, senseless acts, they call for a grasp unknown. I wish it away, to cover these pains, to run from something I could learn to love. Forever the trenches span far and wide, a distance I would crawl without end. Im a coward to comfort, a devil to life, a child without will to grow. Ill never be what they promise to me, a lesson to all who fear what experience dealt them. Listen to me, I could change your life. I could unlearn what you thought permenant. I could ruin your shelter of contentment within a world plagued by rules.

I have become to me the monster they shun, the enemy they tried to conceal. The last thing expected, the last thing desired, the worst of the worst they built. An end to the clause, an answer to the misery, a question that would haunt their dreams. I live through the pages, the words immortal, the foe of the faith they imposed. I am revolt, terror, ugly and unthinkable, forbidden from the east to the west. A challenge, a goal, an aspiration, a mentor to those who should pray to be free. I lead this life not by guides and judges, not by hopes for a better tomorrow. I lead this life by a long crossed road that was paved with your dreams in chains. Theres nothing, no boundaries, no consequence for rising, no lashings to be issued, no cell. Theres nothing to tell you youre doing it wrong and nothing to keep you from going.

I am the exception, the one youve been seeking, the one who should spare you pained fate. I am the one who will golden your nightmares and surface the gateway to life. I am the free, the escaped, the liberated, the voice youve been denying existance. I am the broken expectation, the battered in fear, the child with no mother or father. I am what you are when you place the last straw, when you fall till you can fall no further. I am rock bottom, disbelief of the truth, the mind who has nothing to lose. A one way street descending the mountain, a tank without brakes, a trap door. When you find me, you find life, a reason a breath, a victory you never thought to be. When you find me you find yourself, as whole as you can be with nothing to bar the escape. Maybe you doubt me, maybe you question, maybe you refuse to believe. Whatever it is, I will dismiss it, cause someday I know you will see.
VIEW 13 of 13 COMMENTS
solisis:
not nearly as sorry as i am
Oct 2, 2002
ludavico2002:
the Exception. you write using familiar terms.

interesting.
Oct 2, 2002

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