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I went to the counsellor again today. She drew pictures on a white board. Sounds silly but kinda helped put things in perspective. Like how I needed a few questions answered from him. SO I called him tonight, and said ALL this stuff of how I want to go with him, and I know it can't be right away. and what makes him think I would be better off without him, and that it wasn't fair he was making these decisions and I had no power over them at all, that I wanted to make sure I fought for him because I didn't want to be the person who didn't do anything so that I could be with him. I said a few more things inbetween there, but it wasn't a long conversation because he had somewhere to go, and he said he would think about it. To give him untill Sunday. I'm surprised after that I started saying things how they just poured out of my mouth, and how easy and difficult they were to say. But they were all so true.


FreakPirate is sending me some Invader Zim, via Instant Messenger. I don't know why it's being so awesome tonight but it's going Sooo very Speedy. Which is good, because I need some Gir, to continue my unholy adoration and love.