soko

Sitting here thinking about life over a chess game with one of what I would call a best friend.. I ponder reasons for life and the purpose behind most of it. there is so much you don't see in life simply because people try to keep you down.
I feel confined within a board to move only certain places which I am allowed to move, waiting for the person who tells me where to go to send me to my death for a "greater good".
Why is there such a thing as a greater good? what does sacrifice bring?
I havn't really seen anything worth wasting your life for. Everything in the end is useless and only used for self gain, your waste of life only benefits others for people who will forget about you within a year.
benefits, sacrifices, waste.
always lead to the same thing to me... life just seems to get thrown away and people don't feel the urge to grow in any way shape or form.. mentally.. physically.. it dosen't really matter.. all anyone wants to do is grow old and fat and populate the world with their genetics.. which of course are no better than the person next to them.
I guess asking for someone to not be a complete asshole and explain things to me is to much to ask for the majority of this world? I guess some would call me hypocritical because all I ever do is use people for self gain.. Isn't that just playing the game though? Use everyone so you can get ahead with the luxuries of life? Step on people before you get stepped on.. keep your head above the water... swim toward the light at all costs?
I really hate the way people act..
Why couldn't everyone just try to benefit everyone else?
I guess it sounds fucking lame and impossible.
people will always be assholes