soiraile

the main reason i felt intimidated was the fact that plaingurl was going to send everyone to see me and that intimidating because she always speaks so highly of all of you.

thanks for welcoming me and easing the pressure a bit.


i have a crappy little livejournal but ill try and be active on here as well.

i said i was going to go shower but im sitting here updating and mourning the early demise of my cdrom (again) sims 2 will never grace my computer. thats so sad... ive owned it way to long to have only played an hour on someone else's computer.

im reading White Noise by Don Delillo for my contemp lit class. im 40 pages in. its interesting but im convinced there will be no plot.

ive found out recently that i like crossing out days on the calendar. i dont know why. i hate when time goes by. i know i often wish for the future or wish i was older and more experienced but hell i think 17 was a good year. I think im sad that days im supposed to enjoy are passing too quickly without me succeeding in anything. i always fill my schedule and im constantly doing something (however pointless it may be). if i gave myself more time to myself maybe i would be wishing for the time when time moved quickly. i think i just need to sit back and enjoy things instead of stressing out over things in the future, like the whole money thing...
i suppose i should be enjoying myself. im in love and i have money... good combination. i need to sit down and enjoy it. maybe scotland is a good idea...

i could always go to boston though instead....

so anyway ...
thanks again for being friendly
and im not so intimidated anymore..