Can I just cut to the chase. I am an asshole. Vain and desperate. I beat myself up for NO reason. DO I think this will make me a better person somehow? I want to be this amazing creative being who brings light and happiness and HOPE into other peoples lives. But. I cant seem... to grasp the whole selflessness thing down. I just want to change peoples lives, in a positive way. BUT I hate people. because well.... they NEED to be hated. So Its this awful little world Ive created for myself. and Theres only one people who understands me. AND. Lets just all agree that Im never going to understand why. and Just move on because its too good for me.
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A drug dealer, a local hardcore band and I are all online.
Why are we up this late?
I cant tell which of us has more on our minds. But fuck them. Its me versus everybody when it comes to distress signals and Im not one to waste a flare gun. so Fuck them.
On a side note. Lets talk about chicks, man.
Lets all tell SofaTron he has a problem.
After some drinking and some conversations with friends. Her and my conflict resolved. Her being Andrea. Its great. BUT Y'know. Its never Good enough. Although I will say that I havent had an awkward masturbation joke moment yet in a while... I just... suggested a threesome between her friend and I... I WAS Joking. But when she agreed and her friend declined. I started frantically searching for a third member. Uhhhmm.... I dont know if you know or not. Threesomes arent like resses. NOT everybody wants one. So Y'know. Im trying to hand out the abba zabbas and people are like. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT AN ABBA ZABBA IS.
High Five. Lets tell SofaTron he has a problem.
you should find a less cryptic way of airing your grievances
In order for you to stop treating other people like shit you need to stop treating yourself that way first, that doesnt mean buying yourself nice things or anything like that, you need to find out what is making YOU feel bad about yourself or your personal situation and see what can be fixed. Pull yourself out of the hole youre in.